once upon a time...

Waiting on her

2012-01-14T03:53:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to meet my baby sister.... She's coming home!! Yippee!!!!!

Location:Jalan 3/109f,Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia

Happy times are always short

2011-09-09T10:38:00.001+08:00

Waiting to go to KL soon... Just came back from UK and a shorter still trip to Indonesia .... Can't believe I'm going to have to start school again soon... And it's so annoying that I have to take CLP before I start working... Why can't this be easier?!?! Was suppose to go look at the new house( the place I'm moving in when I'm in KL) yesterday but felt really heavy hearted to leave Penang... Comparing UK and Penang to KL... For sure UK is no fight as the distance is certainly further away... ATC Is offering the first year of CLP this year, but I was to chicken to go try it out... Besides, me being such a lazy person, knowing going to somewhere that doesn't spoon feed me is a no-no...

Anyways, mumzie's fetching me to KL today and my 918372645 stuffs down... Lol... And what's even lol-er is that I'm coming home with her on Sunday as there won't be any classes on weekdays for two weeks hence, my class will only be on Saturday and Sunday this week... *happy*

Location:Lorong Sepakat 2,Bukit Mertajam,Malaysia

Suicide isn't that bad....

2011-08-20T02:21:00.012+08:00

was web hopping ( or whatever it is called ) and I came across a webpage which I find amusing yet derogative... anyway, it's about suicide (click on <----) and don't get me wrong.. I am not contemplating about whether or not I would like to commit such an act.... Just find him funny and the hate mail it generates is massive.... sometimes, I sit back and wonder "is anyone really willing to do anything for fame and fortune?".... anyway, I'm still packing (anyone surprised?) and I know I should have been done by now but look at what I'm doing right now?? blogging.. out of all the things that I should have been doing.. such as CLEANING MY FRIGGING HOUSE!!!! and since everyone left... I'm all alone in the house... sad sad... wishing my maid was here... hmmmphh!! but then again... seeing how she gives my mum heart attack everytime my mum asked her to do something, maybe it would be better if I chuck all the stuff away myself.. lol...

ARGHHHH!!!! can't believe I'm LEAVING...

but then again, I'm going home to these....

can't believe I haven't even seen the youngest one yet.... see how cute he is?? can't wait to hug him like he's a teddy bear... lol... hopefully, he won't feel suffocated...

and and and....

FINALLY....

can't wait to go to Indon and visit my baby sis....
might blog tomorrow about all the people I meet here....
procastination has taken too long and I still frigging need to go bank in money for the shipping company tomorrow and buy the all butter scones which my mum loves Oh-so-much....

a little shoutout to all those who took some time out of their busy schedule to celebrate my bday with me .....

Thank you guys so much...
Was complaining to Tara and Hannah that this is the first birthday that I celebrated without a birthday cake and they went and got me muffins.. and their's pink... so instead of one cake, I got six....

and the next day, went for dinner with Yuen, Ser Reen and May Reen.... was stuffing ourselves with all our left overs and whatever that we could find, and when we were all so full, Ser Reen was like, " should we eat dessert now?" and since I vaguely remember Yuen saying she's got ice cream at home, I was like "yeah!!! time for ice cream" and they were distracting me with me talking to May Reen with my back turned towards the door and suddenly they turned off the light and brought in the cake, I was genuinely surprise... Thank You so much guys.... I really appreciate it!!!

Love you guys so so so much!!!!!

Au revoir, my fellow companions

2011-08-20T00:16:00.014+08:00

My time here seems so short even though it has been almost a year... and I am thankful that I met lots of really nice people here... you guys make my experience here so special... and everyone of you are unique in my mind.... thanks to all those people who accompanied me here from INTI...

Ser Reen
: thanks for standing by my side in times when I need u the most... and dying my hair as we speak... lol.. I just want u to know that I appreciate the friendship that has blossom as we were never that close before... will try to put more effort into making this friendship last.... and I most definitely hope I can be there for u as much as u were there for me...

Ang
: I was glad when we finally made peace with all the misunderstanding and even with ur million and one pattern, I'm still glad that we are friends....

P/S: stop balding ur hair... u look better with some fur on u.. lol

and then came and met

Ivan

: thanks for cheering me up with all ur silliness and all the little fights we keep having... lol... and did not tell u this before but u actually brought me out from a very "dark place"....

Jing Wei
: Thanks for being such an understanding friend and being the sweet one who always say good stuff about me even though everyone else was bullying me... hahaha!!!! u were always the one who wanted to know the facts from both sides of the story before making a decision and I admire you for that...

Yuen
: even though I did not know u for long but I am thankful that I met you and even though u did not like me before, (lol), I am happy that we finally got together and can't believe that we have so much in common.... we even have the same taste in guys... yippeee!!! but wished that we would were on common grounds before and we would have enjoyed each others company more... and wishing you are going to get your BBC finally... really hope we are going to meet again some time in the future....

Adeline

: Ade, u r the one person that I know the shortest period of time throughout my stay here and yet u would not believe the impact u made on me... I believe that u r a very strong willed person and I love the way you give ur illustrations , eg: "if anyone dare to agitate me, I will give her a tight slap"... I am gleeful to have met u and do meet up with me when ur back!!!!!

Tara & Hannah
: I can't believe my luck to have met u guys.... knew that joining BAR school would not be a mistake.... LOL.. even with all the drinking (which is not much at all if my Mum and Dad are reading this ) and the memories in Amsterdam (which I truly treasure always), I am still glad, especially knowing u guys were there to hear me whine and u guys have no idea how thankful I am that I was out with u all the night that I was such a handful... *winks*
: better not lie to me when u promise that u guys are gonna come visit... gonna miss u guys loads and promise to keep in touch!!!!!

Jessica (or Becky for Laurien)
: thanks for being so crazy all the time and I am so happy to meet u at Lounge on the Farm... all thanks to the person who invented the portable BBQ... LOL... keep up the smiley face and the wacky clothings... and let me know when u finally decide to come stay with me.... hahaha!! welcoming u with open hands....

on a final note, I know that there are some of u ( u know who u r) that was or are still unhappy with me and were bad mouthing me, just to inform u guys that, if u claim to be my friend ( and being friends means talking to me when u see me, even at the back of ur mind, u might be thinkng that I am such a bitch), I am truly disappointed that u guys would not come up to me and tell me about the things that I am doing that are making u guys uncomfortable.... I am not blaming u guys for anything because I believe that no one human is perfect and I sincerely believe that I am deeply flawed... LOL... and if u think that what u did was truly for the greater good and u believe every word that you uttered to whomever you are bitching to about, I am happy that u still care enough about me to bitch about me, but try to be a better friend by telling it to my face....

but to all those who confronted me, I am glad that I have friends like u guys and thanks for at least giving me some time to listen to my side of the story...

I love u guys so much and to those who I might not meet for some time or maybe ever, i bid to u " Au revoir".... and to the rest, " see u soon, i guess?"

Happy Birthday.. to me!!!

2011-08-16T19:49:00.005+08:00

celebrated my early Bday celebration in London this year.. it was fun, I guess...
It was really funny how the night turned out.. as usual, had pre-drinks to get us tipsy and I brought the rest of my alcohol down since I'm moving out soon and don't wanna bring any of it back.... (I can't believe how much garbage I've collected over a period of 11 months and packing has been seriously hectic!!!!) anyways, brought down 2 litres of dirty pint and 1 litre of Smirnoff Espresso... was suppose to be drunk by the end of all that but probably because of
all the adrenaline pumping through over being excited, hence, did not even got drunk and Jess said " this cannot happen" and she bought me a bottle of wine.. drank it over at McDonalds where Myles gobble down 3 double cheese burger.... and we were so tipsy when we arrived at the Tube Station... anyways, we took the tube from Queensway and probably got out at Oxford Circus (note the probably) and as we were walking out, Myles had to go and say "what's up, " to the man that was watching the turnstiles.. and there was a commotion when the guy said that he don't appreciate anyone using that language around him... and just as we were about to walk away, the transport police or some police of some sort came down the escalator... and at that moment, I was not thinking of "shit" or "oh oh !" .. I was actually thinking of the scene in Kung Fu Panda 2...

well, did not tell anyone this as it does not seem appropriate then... anyways, Myles got arrested... ARRESTED ... well, don't know the outcome of the whole thing as I had to head back the next day and he spend a night in prison... well, we did end up going to a Gay Club called Fire and well, we just kept running up and down to see Myles in prison and not allowed and going back to the club and apparently, we took a trip on the horse carriage

which I don't even remember!!! lol....anyways, all in all, it was a good night, went to a gay club and watch someone going off to lock up!!! sad but funny...

Experience with Ryan Air.... AGAIN!!!

2011-07-30T17:37:00.001+08:00

Not gonna be posting a long post this time around... Got to Munich last night and was frigging annoyed as I was flying with Ryan Air... It's a low cost airline around EU countries and it's kinda like AirAsia in Malaysia... Anyways, was going through the security check in where they rampage through everyone's bag and they stupidly not put things back.... They list my contact lens case which was really annoying because I don't know where to keep them
Now and guess what, I just used a glass last night!!!!

Anyways, chilling out at Starbucks at Munich's rail station....

PS: this morning's breakfast was awesome with over 50 kinds of cheese!!!!

And a billion choices of drinks and yoghurt and fruits....

Shall update more soon... Gonna catch a train to Salzburg... Toodles!!!

Location:Bayerstraße,Munich,Germany

Those first few nights

2011-07-29T04:28:00.001+08:00

My dad's been here for a few days now and our real holiday began on 25th July 2011 when we went to Bath and Stonehenge for the fourth time... I know.. Lifeless right? Well, somehow... Those stones and the serenity of the place never fails me...

Yea... Me dad and the world famous Sally Lunn's Bun... But seriously... Don't find anything special about it and it cost frigging £1.60 , and it just taste like those bun that you could find on those Indian bread vendors on the bike... Which would just the most cost u RM 1...

Anyways, after a very very tiring day(stayed up all night doing my frigging coursework), it's off to Manchester... No one would fail to notice Old Trafford once anyone mentions Manchester...

Was too near when I snapped this photo... And I even got to go in to the player's changing room and stuff... Should have smelt the seats... Haha... Might get some farts out of it ....

I know this might seem weird but the one place I like most in Manchester was the bathroon in Ashton House where I stayed...

The transparent door

The FM radio

The shower for your feet

The vanity mirror

The LED lighting and top shower

Jacuzzi for the back

Anyways, spent two nights in Manchester and this morning, got a bus down to London....

Well, might all seems fun and well, it is but I had to wake up really early all the time and I'm such NOT a morning person....

Well, it's 9 27pm... Guess that's my bed time if I want to get up at 5am...

When I'm bored

2011-07-20T13:23:00.001+08:00

Just finishes making some paper butterflies... Gonna stick
them on my make up when I'm going out clubbing but for now, they're just gonna stay here looking pretty...

xoxo,
Su-Quinn

Location:Trendlewood Park,Bristol,United Kingdom

Life as it is

2011-07-20T00:14:00.001+08:00

Waking up every morning feeling like life pass me by so fast... Feeling like I have not done enough the day before or maybe done too much... But we have 24 hours in a day... It seems so much by why do we always feel like we need more time? It is true when they say "we always want more than we can get"....

Carpe Diem

If time is of the essence

then I am essentless

I don’t even know what this means

See that’s what happens when you waste time you become ignorant

Constantly procrastinating

See people only count on me to put off till next

Each time

I’m pretty much the opposite if carpe diem

I barely see the day let alone seize the day

Blindly searching for where the day went

And it seems time is faster than me because it keeps passing me by

Why

I don’t know I’ll find out tomorrow

But little did I know death has it’s appointment with me tomorrow

So I don’t have tomorrow I only have today

And I say time must be faster than me

Time must be faster than me because it keeps passing me by

Just as life has

We don’t know how much time we have

So I say carpe diem people carpe diem

To seize the day because

Everyday is precious

Every moment is sacred

And every second should be spent doing what you love and improving self

Terrence T. Carter

Location:Thingwall Park,Bristol,United Kingdom

On days like this

2011-07-18T10:30:00.001+08:00

Was cleaning out my make up box and on days like this, when u see something like ,

It probably means I have too much make up left and I'm trying to throw away those expired ones.... Wondering how much things I would have to throw away when I pack for home ?!?!

xoxo,
Su-Quinn

Location:Thingwall Park,Bristol,United Kingdom

hooked on Technology

2011-07-18T02:14:00.005+08:00

The internet connection at home just got " hence, I got a T-Mobile broadband in place for it....

though it does look awfully cute but seriously, the connection sucks.. that is compared to the internet I use to get from Virgin Media.. I did try to get another contract with Virgin Media but unfortunately, they don't do monthly nor daily contract.... which is a bummer.... and I finished up all my 3GB of connection on the T-Mobile in just one day.... but it was a pretty good deal as they have this fair usage policy which they would give you all the connection they could allow for what you bought and if you exceed it, they wouldn't cut you off but just no surfing for videos and stuff that uses heavy connection but they specifically said, Facebook and Ebay can still be used.....

well, Technology has officially took over my life and I am ashamed to admit that I might not be able to live without it..... hooked on u....

iOS 5

2011-07-17T07:56:00.003+08:00

can't wait, can't wait, can't wait......

the almost-out-soon iOS5 will be offering imessage... something similar to that of BlackBerry Messenger only cooler because it's on Apple products....

http://news.cnet.com/8301-30686_3-20070601-266/ask-maggie-buh-bye-blackberry-iphone-has-imessage/

Earlier this week, Apple announced at its Worldwide Developers Conference in San Francisco that its new iMessage feature that will be baked into the latest version of iOS software due later this year, will offer a similar messaging service that Research In Motion's BBM service offers.

In addition to seeing when and if messages have been received, just like BBM, iMessage will also work over the wireless data network and it will allow subscribers to avoid text-messaging fees.

In this week's Ask Maggie, I explain how the new feature will work, and whether the new iOS 5 will also make it easier to message Google Android users in the same way

iPhone 5 will be released in Autumn, probably around September... Had been contemplating whether to get the iPhone 5 or an iPad 2 or just to go for the iPod Classic.... well, guess what... I'm still contemplating... My parents are gonna kill me if they think I even have this thought in my head.. Probably gonna say I'm wasting $$ and all and, they're probably right.. Besides, September is not gonna come that soon...hehe!!!

http://crave.cnet.co.uk/mobiles/iphone-5-complete-guide-50003119/ <---- complete guide to iPhone 5

ATC or Brickfields

2011-07-15T10:32:00.001+08:00

Just found out today that ATC Penang will be offering CLP for the first time this year... Have no idea whether to go back to Penang to take CLP or just to take it at Brickfields? It's cheaper at ATC and besides, I'll be able to stay close to home... But everyone else will be going off to Brickfields... Everyone else that I know of at least.... Decisions, decisions, decisions.... Anyone with any good advice?

xoxo,
Su-Quinn

Location:Thingwall Park,Bristol,United Kingdom

Back with Word Press

2011-07-14T10:12:00.001+08:00

I'm back with Word Press... The frigging app cost me £1.99.... But apparently it's really good .... And besides... I haven't been blogging much so this should push a few buttons.... well... Not much to talk about now but will keep u guys posted...

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Location:Thingwall Park,Bristol,United Kingdom

Happy Chinese New Year

2011-02-05T12:25:00.002+08:00

I know I should have talk about Chinese New Year like 4 days ago but it was just too hard to do it.... It's just a strange feeling not being able to celebrate it with your love ones back home... Even with all the noise and activities that one has, the noise and cheerfulness of those surrounding one would just not be the same when you're not with your love ones... I did try to make myself busy for the past few nights which was great but once you're awake, the loneliness creeps back into your heart, thus for the weekend, I vow not to go out but just to stay in or just go out for walks... Don't even feel like it's Chinese New Year... Not only am I missing out on the gambling, the steamboat, the Yee Sang but most importantly, my ANG POWS!!!! ok la... That's not really important.... *pressing my heart when I say this*

But I'm seriously thankful that I do have friend's around... Well, some are really great for at least thinking about me when they go out but some who just shows you their true colours when you're down.... At least some friends ate coming over tomorrow... Can't wait!!!!

disappointment

2010-07-06T01:12:00.001+08:00

after many many many months of preparation to only find out that the event is to be postponed....though i know i am in no position whatsoever to get mad but somehow, i do feel it...hurt and betrayed....hard work and slaving away to make the event a success but now i finally realize, what's the point of working hard when not everyone is on the same boat, working as hard as u...and finally, u know u have no say and no power to say no to whatever decision that they decide to make.....all i can do is just to rant and complain....anyways, i'm glad that he promised to get me what i want and what is most important but just by getting the certification and not being here to see the event go through, you'll still feel like something's missing....i actually thought that i was going to be able to go through by keeping it in myself but listening to all the participants grumbling, i feel bad...i feel bad that i promised them so much just to turn out to be BULLSHIT...anyways, i'm sorry guys and thanks a lot for not giving me so much trouble and just forgiving me this way.... i promise to have better management skills next time and i also promise never to work hard for someone else's event anymore.... NOTHING IS CERTAIN.....

168 hours non-stop aquathlon 2010 via Largest Aquathlon Competition

2010-06-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

as the 168 hours non-stop aquathlon 2010 via Largest Aquathlon Competition comes closer and closer, i could hear a heartbeat which is think is not beating as hard as it use to be.....i do pray and try my very best to work hard at the event but knowing that this is a very big event, i know for sure this is not only in my hand but in the hands of everyone handling this event to make it successful.... it's kinda tiring when it feels like it's only a person handling the event.... all i can do now is, do my part the best i can and pray for the event to turn out well....anyways, to all those concern, time is certainly no longer on our side....by slacking and not handling your part well, we're all suffering...so, in order to make the best of the situation, let's all work together to make this the best event this school have ever seen k?

it's out

2010-05-11T05:21:00.002+08:00

had the operation to remove my wisdom tooth on Saturday....couldn't talk or smile for like 3 days...anyways, at least it's out...yippee!!!no more tooth ache..anyways, just came back to school today.... had three hours of Tort Law.....almost fell asleep in class but was sitting in front of the lecturer....heard that out of all the students in the class, only 8 students pass Land Law... really need my motivator....gotta leave....don't wanna stay here anymore.....

Love is...........

2010-05-04T19:26:00.006+08:00

wisdom tooth...AGAIN....

2010-05-04T10:51:00.002+08:00

was having fever on Saturday and slept the whole day and then on sunday night, finally had my high fever and i was thinking please don't tell me i'm gonna have Denggue again.....well, having an exam on Friday on my Tort paper....so anyways, was crying practically the whole night through because after the fever, my gum started swelling and it hurts like mad....it was then, that i finally realize..... that it felt so familiar...another wisdom tooth of mie is trying to come out to see the light of day....well, too bad that my quota for my teeth are fully filled up and guess what, i'm haviing another mini operation again on Saturday....damn, it's the second time and i'm wondering....since there's like 4 wisdom teeth...does this mean i need to have 4 operations?damn....well, went to the dentist yesterday and she gave me some medication...probably just all antibiotics and some pain killer.....the swelling and pain is still there and after medication, totally feel sleepy...couldn't even go to class.....or maybe it's just an excuse not to go to class....

p/s: if i lose all my wisdom teeth, does this mean i'm not going to have any wisdom at all?

the beginning of an ending

2010-04-30T22:25:00.004+08:00

i fell again and i fell really hard this time... gonna opt for a LDR.....

well, he's off and i cried and i'm on an emotional rollercoaster ride but i'll promise to be better....can't wait for him to be back.... missing him dearly....

off to another love blog of mine....

enough is enough

2010-03-28T14:33:00.004+08:00

damn annoyed just now....well, for most of u who knows me, sometimes, i do get annoyed with my roomie for all the little things that she does, e.g: the other day at 8, she said she wanted to go to bed...btw, that's no surprise as she does at times sleeps as early as at 6... so anyways, she said she wanted to go to bed and i was like ok....so i continued watching my movie and i had already turned it so low that i'm pretty sure that there's no way she would hear or make out what they were saying, and she kept looking at me, then she said i should use my earphones, which i did considering it's the reasonable thing to do, so anyways, after i did, she still said it was too loud and then after a while, she told me she need to sleep with the lights off, so i did turn off the light den after a while, she told me that my laptop is giving out too much light thus i had to turn it off, thus creating the lifeless me....that's why i'm like in the common room so much nowadays..

anyways, what really ticked me off was the fact that today, an insect flew into our room and it landed on her which she jumped and then the insect flew onto the chair, guess what she did, she threw the chair to the middle of the room and after i said don't blow it to my side, she did just that and did not bother to clean it up with a paper or whatsoever, that's when ENOUGH IS ENOUGH and i could practically feel my blood boiling and well, i yelled at her and stomped out of the room..... and after cooling down, besides hanging up my clothes, i came back and guess what, she took my advice and cleaned up the insect with a paper...only problem is it's my paper and it's a piece of paper which i had been keeping for a while and i had no idea why she can't use any of her papers...that's when i really feel like stabbing her eyes out but i did not and i had to leave the room again to calm down.....and the paper is already in the dustbin and i can't take it up again...expecially after it has the insect's insides on it....

p/s:sometimes, i wonder if some ppl are just born retarded or they just enjoy doing retarded things?

anyways, a secret msg to M INSECT, i told u the story bout ur small bird cheating on u for ur own good, get out of the relationship with at least a little dignity left in u...u would rather trust the player rather then me, but then again, ur a M insect who likes to suck blood, i would not blame u since u do not have any brain in that little head of urs...do u know what kind of trouble u brought to us?thanks a lot...and if u wanna come confront me, u know my number and where i stay, if u want, do bring ur small bird along....

of the EXes and the CURRENTs

2010-03-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

well, did something utterly stupid just now....sometimes, i think i'm just too emotional.... there's this guy i used to have a CRUSH on...well, i knew from way long ago that he was in a relationship but it was not out in the open, well, now that it's posted on his profile....arghhh!!!it just felt, somehow...it's not that i'm not happy for him because i am and it's not that because i'm not over him...i am... it's just that deep down, i'm jealous i guess... even though i'm happy with HIM being ME&HIM now....well, i did not wanna lie to him so i told him the truth bout the CRUSH and how i felt towards his status and even though he said it's fine, i know it was a really dumb move which i shouldn't have take... anyways, i wanna apologize for being stupid and i LOVE HIM... so very much and i wish he did not take this the wrong way as to that i might still have something for the CRUSH....

relationship rules are so complicated

randomness

2010-03-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

no idea why i'm so damn moody nowadays and just as my mood was beginning to lighten up, someone asked me out which me, as an idiot, as usual said yes and well, i should've known from the start that this person was gonna stand me up...it's not the first time this person, let's call him A, did it to me...

over the period of 2 years, even when A promised to meet at like certain time at a certain place, it's either that he don't show or that he has excuses....i'm not saying that his excuses are not valid but for a certain reason, he find me waiting for him much more fun then giving me a eff-ing call to tell me that he can't make it...well, as the years have taught me well, i did finally give up waiting for him and whenever he said that we're going to a so and so place, i would just end up listening and den will only head on down only if he's already waiting for me downstairs...anyways, since i'm like so moody today and i thought i might go and have a walk outside and since he said that he wanna meet up, i thought ok den...maybe we should...

stupidly, i went down with my laptop and my books as i was about to head to the common room WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSE TO MEET UP with my bag on my back...my burning back with my skin almost peeling off from the frigging sunburn... only to find out that he's still busy doing "something" and i just got so fed up and as i'm so polite as not to yell over the phone, i just stomp back up my room and called to tell him, if he wanna meet den he should just come, if not den...i don't know, i would never believe a word he say....EVER AGAIN!!!!

p/s: sometimes, ppl put up with u because they want to but when u cross the limit, to hell with u!!!

HIM

2010-03-03T18:52:00.003+08:00

i would like to dedicate this post to the person who does not know how to express his feelings

if only u knew how important u r in my life and how u came to play an important role in my life... i don't know how to tell u how appreciative i am of u but at the same time, i wonder if u are appreciative of me...sometimes, there are time when i wish that u could read my mind for i have no guts of telling u what i really feel at times and at times, i wonder if u feel the same way as well.. i do try, really hard to please u and even when ppl say that this is not the way love is suppose to be, i still tell myself, maybe it's just because that he does not know how to express his feelings and maybe he still loves me under all those...

i love u.

i love every little thing about u.

i love ur cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice.

i love your gentle touch, and i love the warmth i feel when i'm by ur side.

i can't stop thinking bout u when we are apart.

i need u by my side.

you complete me.

you mean the world to me.

u r the best thing that has ever happened to me.

u r the one i have always wished for.

i never thought that i would ever meet someone as special as u.

i love each and every moment i share with u.

Chinese New Year

2010-02-10T13:33:00.004+08:00

so many people are heading back home....didn't have class on wednesday and thursday and only have 10-11 on friday...if i knew that earlier, would've went back home on tuesday... anyways, what's done is done....just can't wait till tomorrow to go back home.....i miss home and my babies.....

watched "Marley and me" for like the fifth time today and as usual, cried AGAIN...had to pause the movie like a few times so that i don't cry continuously and end up sobbing uncontrollably...for those who are ignorant enough not to know the movie, the synopsis as copied from wikipedia states:

Told in first-person narrative, the book portrays Grogan and his family's life during the thirteen years that they lived with their dog Marley, and the relationships and lessons from this period. Marley, a yellow Labrador Retriever, is described as a high-strung, boisterous, and somewhat uncontrolled dog. He is strong, powerful, endlessly hungry, eager to be active, and often destructive of their property (but completely withoutmalice). Marley routinely fails to "get the idea" of what humans expect of him; at one point, mental illness is suggested as a plausible explanation for his behavior. His acts and behaviors are forgiven, however, since it is clear that he has a heart of gold and is merely living within his nature.

During his escapades he makes a two-minute credited appearance in the movie The Last Home Run (filmed in 1996 and released in 1998).

The strong contrast between the problems and tensions caused by his neuroses and behavior, and the undying devotion, love and trust shown towards the human family as they themselves have children and grow up to accept him for what he is, and their grief when he finally dies fromgastric dilatation volvulus (a stomach torsion condition) in old age,^[1] form the backdrop for the biographical material of the story.

sneaky reptiles

2010-02-07T04:21:00.005+08:00

there's a lizard hanging on the wall of the bathroom which i have no idea why the cleaner would not take it off and it always scared the shit out of me when i went to the toilet...seeing how i could like barely see without my specs, i didn't know it was there and i finally gather up my courage to go snap a photo of it...

and he/she look like he/she broke his/her neck....

F A M I L Y

2010-01-31T04:06:00.002+08:00

was chatting with my room mate and we were talking bout families and stuffs... she's like this soft-spoken girl and if any of you know me truly, you would know for a fact that she's totally different from me...i'm LOUD, and i would beat the crap out of u if i could.... anyways, my parents were really supportive of me ever since i was young... and my room mate was complaining about how she always gets pushed around ever since she was young and seeing her this way, made her looked so vulnerable and it sort of made her look like she had low self-esteem which i asked her and which she agreed to.... anyways, my point here is that i just felt really lucky to have parents like this and i really do appreciate them....

F A M I L Y = Father And Mother I Love You

do appreciate people who are close to you while you can....don't regret it later on....was this really self- loathe bitch but i'm thankful that life has turned over a new leaf for me....

p for paris, paris for president

2010-01-28T20:31:00.003+08:00

went through my videos in my external hard disk because i needed to clean up some space...and guess what i found?
son't even remember why i had this video but would one imagine what would it be like if Paris was president?

bad cum good day

2010-01-23T05:54:00.008+08:00

haha! the title is so full of diversion... anyways, had an eventful day.... well, the day started of with me attending the 3 hours class which was suppose to be just 1 hour....anyways, should be glad that my lecturers are working so hard....well, then came back and slept from 1-3 pm and laze around the room till 6++pm...later on, took my bath and this is where the evening turns interesting...was taking my bath then yiling ran in and was like "hua hua got into and accident" which i heard as "o che" which also means blue black, then i rushed out of the bathroom when yiling repeated the phrase and just put on the nearest clothes and didn't even bo

ther to brush my hair then i ran down to go pick toto up and den rush to the accident scene, which was like just right outside school....for those of you who saw it, you must've notice how terribly horrible the cars look banged up right? anyways, picked up hua hua and rushed to the nearest hospital and we actually have plans to go to CAPITOL SATAY

to have sate celup

and we almost did not make it because of the accident but guess what? my kakis are never beaten down by things like this and ta da...i ended up eating like 86 sticks of sate plus 2 herbal tea, 1 lemon juice and 1 coffee wine...thus the number 1 champion emerges...wakakaka!!!thus, the mission impossible of not eating for like 2 days shall begin....but of course, without fail, those who ever steps food in Malacca should not ever forget to sample this one of a kind food.... well, after the gruesome but partially enjoyable meal, we headed on to the jetty where we played pool and hung out for a bit before finally heading back at like 5 in the morning.... well, good night, or should i say a very good morning and sleep well....

love story

2010-01-21T16:16:00.002+08:00

there's nothing that ice cream and a sad love movie cannot overcome...thanks for turning my day around....was having a eff-ing bad day since this afternoon and everything turned around after the ice cream and love movie... ^_^ but no one would've guess what movie i watch....

i'm back and i'm better...much better

2010-01-16T03:25:00.005+08:00

hell yea!!!!haven't been updating my blog for what seems to be like....................... FOREVER!!!

i know... u guys thought i died right?

anyways, i'm back and gonna be better....

well, how's everyone accepting the new year as u welcome in the fact that ur another year older

well, i guess this year is for sure gonna be stressful

but as long as i take one step at a time, i guess everything is gonna work out fine....

well, will update weekly if i have the time k?

relationship's ups and downs

2009-09-18T05:19:00.003+08:00

was talking bout relationships in the car just now and all of a sudden, it became a really hot topic and made me realize how humans are just like that basically....

basically, what a girl wants in a relationship is for them to be love and cared by, seeing how perfect guys who are caring and loyal and the plus point of being good looking is partially extinct, thus of course looks doesn't really matter or so says lots of girls (maybe to console themselves of the envy). but to my understanding, human in nature can never be fully happy with what they have. that's why i do envy those who can have long term relationship and can still have the "fire" that one feel during the three months when the relationship just started.

when we were complaining about guys, one of my single friend made a comment that since there's not really anything good that happen once the "fire" gets less aggressive, what's the point of being in a relationship then? and why is it that people needs to be in a relationship?is it the touch and care that one need or is it the constant love that one feels that made people think that somehow,being in a relationship is magical? to me, being in love is much more important then being in a relationship but somehow, once one start loving someone, the next move is the be in a relationship. see how strange and odd the circle of life is?

LIFE->LOVE->RELATIONSHIP->MARRIAGE->BABIES->DEATH

love and relationship must be an entertainment in life but well some people are afraid to fall in love seeing as how trusting someone with one's heart could clearly caused heartache and pain. thus, came the creation of FUN. that's a full proof plan of having love and not ending up hurt....anyways, there's always pros and cons to everything earth and sometimes, it seems life ain't worth living....

facts between girls and guys

2009-08-09T09:30:00.001+08:00

Men vs. Women
Some subtle (and some not so subtle) differences

Handwriting:

Men: To their credit, men do not decorate their penmanship. They just chicken-scratch.

Women: Women use scented, colored stationery and they dot the "i" with circles or hearts. Women use ridiculously large loops in the "b" and "g". It is a pain to read a note from a woman. Even when she's dumping you, she will put a smiley face at the end of the note.

Groceries:

Women: A woman makes a list of things she needs, then goes out to the store and buys those things.

Men: A man waits till the only items left in his fridge are half a lime and a beer. Then he goes grocery shopping. He buys everything that looks good. By the time a man reaches the checkout counter, his cart is packed tighter than the Clampett's car on Beverly Hillbillies. Of course, this will not stop him from going to the express lane.

Relationships:

Women: When a relationship ends, a woman will cry and pour her heart out to her girlfriends, and she will write a poem titled "All Men Are Idiots". Then she will get on with her life.

Men: A man has a little more trouble letting go. Six months after the break-up, at 3:00 a.m. on a Saturday night, he will call and say, "I just wanted to let you know you ruined my life, and I'll never forgive you, and I hate you, and you're a total floozy. But I want you to know that there's always a chance for us." This is known as the "I Hate You / I Love You" drunken phone call, that 99% of all men have made at least once. There are community colleges that offer courses to help men get over this need.

Sex:

Women: They prefer 30-40 minutes of foreplay.

Men: They prefer 30-40 seconds of foreplay. Men consider driving back to her place part of the foreplay.

Maturity:

Women: They mature much faster than men. Most 17-year old females can function as adults.

Men: Most 17-year old males are still trading baseball cards and giving each other wedgies after gym class. This is why high school romances rarely work out.

Magazines:

Men: Men's magazines often feature pictures of naked women. Men are turned on at the sight of a naked woman's body.

Women: Women's magazines also feature pictures of naked women. This is because the female body is a beautiful work of art, while the male body is lumpy and hairy and should not be seen by the light of day. Most naked men elicit laughter from women.

Bathrooms:

Men: A man has six items in his bathroom -- a toothbrush, shaving cream, razor, a bar of Dial soap, and a towel from the Holiday Inn.

Women: The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 437. A man cannot identify most of these items.

Shoes:

Women: When preparing for work, a woman will put on a wool suit, then slip on Reebok sneakers. She will carry her dress shoes in a plastic bag from Saks. When a woman gets to work, she will put on her dress shoes. Five minutes later, she will kick them off because her feet are under the desk.

Men: A man will wear the same pair of shoes all day. Let's not talk about how many days he'll wear the same socks.

Cats:

Women: Women love cats.

Men: Men say they love cats, but when women aren't looking, men kick cats.

Children:

Women: A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and soccer games and romances and best friends and favorite foods and secret fears and hopes and dreams.

Men: A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Dressing Up:

Women: A woman will dress up to: go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book, get the mail.

Men: A man will dress up for: weddings, funerals.

Laundry:

Women: Women do laundry every couple of days.

Men: A man will wear every article of clothing he owns, including his surgical pants (the ones that were hip about eight years ago) before he will do his laundry. When he is finally out of clothes, he will wear a dirty sweatshirt inside out, rent a U-Haul and take his mountain of clothes to the Laundromat. Men always expect to meet beautiful women at the Laundromat. This is a myth perpetuated by reruns of old episodes of "Love American Style."

Eating Out:

Men: When the check comes, each man will each throw in $20 bills, even though it's only for $22.50. None of them will have anything smaller, and none will actually admit they want change back.

Women: When the girls get their check, out come the pocket calculators.

Mirrors:

Men: Men are vain and will check themselves out in a mirror.

Women: They are ridiculous; they will check out their reflections in any shiny surface: mirrors, spoons, store windows, bald guys' heads.

Menopause:

Women: When a woman reaches menopause, she goes through a variety of complicated emotional, psychological, and biological changes. The nature and degree of these changes varies with the individual.

Men: Menopause in a man provokes a uniform reaction - he buys aviator glasses, a snazzy French cap and leather driving gloves, and goes shopping for a Porsche.

The Phone:

Men: Men see the telephone as a communication tool. They use the telephone to send short messages to other people.

Women: A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.

Richard Gere:

Women: Women like Richard Gere because he is sexy in a dangerous way.

Men: Men hate Richard Gere because he reminds them of that slick guy who works at the health club and dates only married women.

Madonna:

Same as above, but reversed. Same reason.

Toys:

Women: Little girls love to play with toys. Then when they reach the age of 11 or 12, they lose interest.

Men: Men never grow out of their toy obsession. As they get older, their toys simply become more expensive, silly and impractical. Examples of men's toys: little miniature TVs. Car phones. Complicated juicers and blenders. Graphic equalizers. Small robots that serve cocktails on command. Video games. Anything that blinks, beeps, and requires at least 6 "D" batteries to operate.

Cameras:

Men: Men take photography very seriously. They'll shell out $4000 for state of the art equipment, and build dark rooms and take photography classes.

Women: Women purchase Kodak Instamatics. Of course, women always end up taking better pictures.

Locker Rooms:

Men: In the locker room men talk about three things: money, football, and women. They exaggerate about money, they don't know football nearly as well as they think they do, and they fabricate stories about women.

Women: They talk about one thing in the locker room - sex. And not in abstract terms, either. They are extremely graphic and technical, and they never lie.

Movies:

Women: Every actress in the history of movies has had to do a nude scene. This is because every movie in the history of movies has been produced by a man.

Men: The only actor who has ever appeared nude in the movies is Richard Gere. This is another reason why men hate him.

Jewelry:

Women: Women look nice when they wear jewelry.

Men: A man can get away with wearing one ring and that's it. Any more than that and he will look like a lounge singer named Vic.

Conversation:

Men: Men need a good disagreement to get talking. For instance, "Wow, great movie." or "What are you, nuts? No REAL cop would have an Uzi that size."

Women: Women, not having this problem, try to initiate conversations with men by saying something agreeable: "That garden by the roadside looks lovely." "Mm hmm." Pause. "That was a good restaurant last night, wasn't it?" "Yeah." Pause. And so on.

Leg Warmers:

Women: Leg warmers are sexy. A woman, even if she's walking the dog or doing the dishes, is allowed to wear leg warmers. She can wear them any time she wants.

Men: A man can only wear leg warmers if he is auditioning for the "Gimme the Ball" number in "A Chorus Line."

Friends:

Women: Women on a girls' night out talk the whole time.

Men: Men on a boy's night out say about twenty words all night, most of which are "Pass the Doritos" or "got any more beer?"

Restrooms:

Women: Women use restrooms as social lounges. Women who've never met will leave a restroom giggling together like old friends. Women also go to the restroom in packs, at least two women at a time excuse themselves to use the restroom.

Men: Men use restrooms for purely biological reasons. Men in a restrooms will never speak a word to each other. And never in the history of the world has a man excused himself from a restaurant table by saying, "Hey, Tom, I was just about to take a leak. Do you want to join me?"

Exams

2009-08-09T08:26:00.002+08:00

having the first paper tomorrow and as usual, don't feel prepared at all....and this is the one time i totally feel calm that i'm having exams....but deep down, feel that, there might be a possibility that i might hang around for a lil' while more.....well, might have a nervous breakdown later on.... who knows....anyways, just felt like updating and to those who have had started exams or who's gonna sit for their exams soon, all the best and may you guys pass with flying colours.....

the closing of life saving and swimming club

2009-07-17T21:09:00.002+08:00

ng sze fang, it was the beginning of the "lumness" of the club when you left the club in the hands of the new comittee...so damn fucking pissed off right now....what the fuck is all this?if anyone got any fucking opinions, come and say it to my face....you fucking mother fuckers.....

put a cap on it....

2009-07-16T18:33:00.007+08:00

i never thought i would fall for u so hard....

i fell deeper and deeper in ......

and just when i thought i've given up, you had to come around and revive my heart again.....

but right now, my will power is so much stronger now.....

so even though i saw u just now, i snapped back to reality and i realize.....
you're the love i would never have.....

Intiball '09 : Infinite Momento

2009-07-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

yesterday was INTIBALL '09....the committee did a really good job..nice music...great activities,nice food and everything was just great....congratulations to all of them for the job well done....

didn't really snapped loads of photos but you guys can check it out on Facebook....

well, as a matter in fact...even though with all the good job everyone has donw on the ball...didn't really had fun last night but i'm still thankful for the memories....nothing really worked out and not trying to be a whiner but i guess i would've just had more fun staying in my room and finishing up my assignment....because if i have had finished it last night wouldn't be so nervous right now and i could've visited my mum and dad in KL for the day.....

to cut the long story short, still had a great time even though with all those little knicks for the night....

P/S: thanks to everyone who have had made the night a success..though the experience at the club wasn't really what i would've expected....

to SUNGAI WANG

2009-07-03T20:38:00.003+08:00

went to Sungai Wang on Wednesday with Yiling,Toto,Hua Hua and Ching Ching....didn't really snapped a lot of photos because was just too busy shopping....studies are really a bummer these few days....i'm feeling so sick of the books....and my company assignment....it's really bad to do last minute work especially if you're pretty dumb...

Tomorrow, Intiball will be on...I'm not even sure if I'll be going...haven't even bought the tickets....anyways, if I do go, wished I'm going to have fun den....gonna snap like a million pictures..hahaha!!!

back yet still tired....

2009-07-01T02:00:00.002+08:00

just came back from my recent "holiday"....took a one week holiday and went back home but i didn't stay at home much because i was in the hospital like the whole week...anyways,what's important is that i'm back in school....can't believe i'm saying this but i'm actually glad to be back here...because i've been feeling so guilty for missing class for like the whole week....lots of catching up to do....

missed out on tree house in cyberjaya on friday....and missed out on so much juicy gossip from the yum cha gang...and missed everyone in school....

but seriously worried bout my studies....how am i gonna catch up on all that i lost...felt so lost when the lecturer was teaching in class today...sobs....anyone willing to spend time to teach me?

coughing and swollen finger

2009-06-13T10:03:00.003+08:00

so many things are running through my brain now...it kinda feel like the monorail running on it's tracks and that it's running at a very high speed and it might run off the tracks at any time....

didn't really tell anyone when i'll be leaving because to be truthful, i'm not really sure either....really hope will be able to leave according to plan but there are always 'what if's' in life....nothing had been feeling right this whole week....my stress level is like way over the top and wish to find someone to care.....probably a lot of ppl do but somehow, i just feel neglected....what's the point of having a bf if all he acts like is just as if he is just a friend.....

a question i would like to ask:

would any of u tell ur partner if one of his/her best friend made a move on u....eg:tried to kiss u?

R A I N

2009-06-02T23:53:00.003+08:00

i really like it when it rain nowadays....especially during the night because the cold wind would come rushing into my room.... it's raining now...really heavy rain...like cats and dogs.... the sound of it is just too soothing....besides, it's like being in a car wash for the cars.... and girls always look sexier drenched from head to toes...hahaha!!!and when it rains, no one would know if ur crying in it....

boyfriends and boy who are friends

2009-06-02T17:18:00.005+08:00

there are so many types of people and relationship in the world....what i'm about to discuss today is about friendship and boyfriends....i know it's not in my position to say it but i really dislike it when someone put their boyfriend over you...it's wouldn't have mattered much if that person is someone you don't really know because when they do that, you could just act like you did not see it and just walk away...but if it's one of your friend, it's actually quite uncomfortable sitting there and knowing you have to watch it and accept it...

a friend of mine, said she wanted to gimme something but in the end, she added," if u don't want it then i'm going to give it to him"...what i'm trying to point out here is, since she said and look like she would rather if he has it, what else am i suppose to say?i can't possibly tell her then, i want it right?it would be insensitive and obviously dumb of me...and besides, we hardly get to spend time with like a group of us anymore because she's always with him and our time are really limited....

anyways, as i said, there are different people in this world and since she's a friend of mine, i guess, i have to live with it and take it in as it is den....hmmphh....damn, i seriously dislike the way the guy think....

p/s:what's the point of having a boyfriend if all he act like is just a boy who is a friend?

love and lust

2009-06-02T01:51:00.003+08:00

how is one suppose to differentiate between love and lust?sometimes, i wonder is it because of gluttony for affection that causes lust?love seem to be something so pure and real but recently i started doubting love....don't get me wrong, i think love does exist...like the fact that i love my family and friends but to love someone else unconditionally...that is what i'm doubting....is it true that there is a part of you that could love someone unconditionally?i used to think that it might happen....i used to believe in love and fairy tales....but right now, i still haven't found it and right now, i think that love is only a feeling that people make up so that they could hold on to the thought...the thought of being in love...the sweet sweet feeling that one feel when they're in the beginning of the relationship when everything else is such a blur and there seems to be no one else but yourselves....

but lust....lust is a totally different case all together....ok...let's talk bout a senario....there's a girl, Amber, and a guy(obviously), Jesse....the girl and guy met at a club and undoubtly, the relationship gre into something much more serious...they meet up like every single day and one day, the guy just told the girl that this should all stop because of all the guilt they are feeling and how this is all wrong....the girl had never felt this way for a guy before and she and him knew that no matter what, the relationship is going to break down one day....the distance and culture would definitely tear them apart....so they stopped but the girl just wouldn't stop thinking or caring for the guy and she tries to feed off somewhere else....the question here is that, does she still wants the guy just because she knows she can't have him?or is it because, that's really love? and if it's love, could she get her affections fed by someone totally different?will time really heal all of it? is it just a phase?
love and lust?why are they so difficult to differenciate?guys stinks and love sucks....

HOT.HOT.HOT

2009-05-11T21:28:00.004+08:00

the weather is seriously very hot and it's kinda making me pissed off....sorry for being moody nowadays....with my aunt and the weather,it truly is a disaster....i've been drinking so much water and i've been taking so much bath i feel kinda guilty...and i feel sleepy all the time and the assignment which i was suppose to finish last week is still here,not done....

i even got moody at so many innocent friends, i think everyone is beginning to think i'm a idiotic bItCh....i'm really sorry...trying to refrain from speaking to anyone right now....hopefully this way, i won't go around getting moody at people.....and i'm truly sorry for the water wastage....

really wanna finish at least two assignments this week.....arghhhhh

Happy Mother's Day,Mummy

2009-05-10T17:07:00.003+08:00

"Happy Mother's Day"

"Happy Mother's Day" means more

Than have a happy day.

Within those words lie lots of things

We never get to say.

It means I love you first of all,

Then thanks for all you do.

It means you mean a lot to me,

And that I honor you.

But most of all,

I guess it means

That I am thinking of

Your happiness on this, your day,

With pleasure and with love

INTI poems...

2009-05-05T11:15:00.001+08:00

INTI POEM (OLD VERSION)

At first I love INTI
But INTI loves my money
I ask money from daddy
But daddy asks mummy
Mummy goes to INTI
And find out why INTI's so greedy

The lift always mati
And the guards look like monkey
That's why I started to hate INTI
INTI don't love me
What for I love INTI

All they need is money
Nothing but money, money and money
The lecturers teach like bugs bunny
No wonder they're so lousy
And their faces look so funny
Like Talos the mummy

Futhermore, more more money flows to INTI
But they never plant more trees
All because they want to save money
Make all students feel hot to mati

First I entered INTI
I got no kaki
Later I found someone likes to play tai tee
Then I started don't want to study
Here we can find a lot of kaki judi
That's why we must blame INTI

Since I entered INTI I cant see any leng lui lili sexy
Even the lecturers are more pretty
I always want to date them for tea
But I always kejar they always lari

Dr. Lim from SOLLA always lan si
People said his pucuk already mati
Even Viagra also tak boleh jadi
That's why loh people say he is 'cc'

He likes to tell jokes to everybody
But his joke never funny
Sometimes people thinks that his crazy
Dr. Lim so pity

INTI's toilets really smelly
No water no api
Even you haven't pee
You want to lari
Always complain they also say soli soli

Tan yew sing always said his INTI got quality
Instead everyone knows they are lousy
INTI motive just to earn more money
So that they can pay lecturers salary
And INTI share in KLSE can naik lagi

Waterfish like us always press by INTI
Just to tipu more more money
That is all the story about INTI
Which loves money
But after all I still come to INTI

To contribute money
u r not in INTI?
u r very luckycoz INTI cant bluff ur money
just cabut n jangan kembali

Student of INTInoway to lari
already jadi SuiYee (waterfish)
plz tell everybody
jangan kena tipu lagi

THE NEW INTI POEM
TO WHOEVER WHO WROTE THAT OLD VERSION

Izzit you too sien adi with INTI?
Maybe coz you never ever study
Always shake leg and "wah pei si" (digging nose)
24/7 at CC play DOTA or L4DU

say ask money from daddy
daddy ask you ask mommy
at last work so hard to support you already
WHAT U DID??

Yaya write sohai stuff about INTI
you nothing better to do ar really?!
You say INTI lift always mati
you KING KONG ar kenot walk, too heavy?

if INTI guard look like monkey
you look like more like "yat pek si" (a piece o shit)
and so you say "INTI don't love me" (right!)
coz you really "mou yok yi" (cureless)
so no matter how u mati-mati
your results FOREVER E E E!

All they need is money (yes)
Well, thanks to you idiots pay money but never study
The lecturers teach like bugs bunny
Sumore you say they so lousy
MAYBE its because u never ever listen properly
sit behind there talk cock story!

U complain complain INTI no tree
All because they want to save money
YOU LEH? throw rubbish sana-sini

Sit in room play game tak pernah mandi
You don't feel hot oso smelly until mati!
Told you already u only know how to waste money
Parents give u money but you play tai tee
Own self say don't want to study, Blame INTI.
Of coz la you forever kaki judi

Coz you got no life, no job, no money.
WHOLE COLLEGE LIFE WASTED IN INTI!
Since u entered INTI you can't see any leng lui lili sexy
You very lengzhai ar that girls want to see?
Look at ur face oso all want to barf and flee
No wonder you no luck, forever "ta fei ji" (jerking off)

FIRST you say lecturer like bugs bunny
THEN you say u want to date them for tea
U really 1500% gila babi
Hopeless, useless, something problem with your psychology!

Dr. Lim from SOLLA always lan si?
You jealous ar coz he got money drive Benz-si
How you all know his pucuk mati already?
You gay tards got actually see??
I think its YOUR small koochi size that you should worry
Yucks, yerr, bluek, petoooi.... YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......

Tan Yew Sing always said his INTI got quality
You know but then you don't agree
So its either your parents or you yourself gila babi

You think like that, then WHAT THE F**K you doing in INTI???
INTI motive just to earn more money
OF COZ LAR U THINK BUSINESS IS CHARITY??
IF THEY DON'T PAY LECTURERS, WHO GOING TO TEACH YOU ABC?
you're not a waterfish larh, YOU'RE A BIG DUMB WUSSY!

INTI SHARE IN KLSE can naik lagi
now sumore partner with Laureate group of university
too bad you're no longer here to see
better off without you monkeys here in this community
good that you cabut lari,
I BEG YOU PLEASEEE JANGAN KEMBALI!

students of INTI noway to lari
Coz here too happening with clubs and society
already pay money might as well happy happy.

No need to write stupid things about INTI
If you so good write poems better go be an MC
Don't mess with PROUD INTI students like me
So far come all the way,wa ipoh mali

We all know at the end we still love INTI!
To the fellow who disgraced us all from INTI,
Lets see you beat this rhyme at any angle or degree.

For those of you who agree with me.
God bless you,forward this,its your call now,I'M OUTTEY!!

500th post

2009-04-29T02:12:00.002+08:00

my 500th post and i'm back in school...hmmm.....anyways, today had been a busy day...i'm tired.... had to enrol and attend classes which just lasted for a while because it's just the first day and i guess the lecturer don't really wanna give us much stress...

anyways,don't really plan on doing anything special for my 500th post because i'm really tired and i don't have any ideas on what to do....

i just wanna point out that being in love stinks...one need to compromise so much and even after you compromise, the other might not feel it....he might still feel it's not enough....what is a girl to do?i'm no superhuman....what else am i suppose to do?

we've been fighting so much recently,it's seriously feeling weird and there seems to be something blocking our relationship from getting further....is it gonna end soon?it might if i'm gonna leave here...i really wanna leave and not wanna stay back but leaving here would mean leaving lots of other things behind....it's because i've been here my whole life...

i really really really wanna pass though...arghhh..gonna have to work my ass off this semester...even if i die getting a heart attack...i still gotta work hard....

irresponsible.disappointed.sad

2009-04-28T15:48:00.005+08:00

i'm through with putting hope and faith on guys...they just keep letting me down...i don't know and i totally don't understand what the heck they are thinking....i'm gonna go back to being mean..just thinking bout myself....whatever happens, just let it happen...whatever they wanna do, just let it happen...just have fun and it's all gonna be behind me...but sometimes, things that you leave behind might come back to haunt you...whatever shall happen from now on, just let it happen...i should just be thankful if it ends then too bad but i guess he should've seen it coming...stop confusing me with your mix signals....i'm confused....

T R U S T

2009-04-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

it's hard being in a relationship without trust...when it's no longer there and one can't get it back...you would know that it's time to let go....sometimes, it's really haard to let go of things that you once hold dear to your heart....and loads of tears would flow and you would weep so much your eyes seems to look like they're gonna fall off...

maybe i should let it all go...even though it might hurt for now...it might be better in the future....but the one thing that stinks the most about the future is the fact that we won't know how it is gonna be...

i really wanna get an ipod touch... *sobs* humans just have too much wants and not enough money...

sigh of relief

2009-04-17T04:21:00.005+08:00

I'm sitting for the Company Law paper at 8 later in the day...it's gonna be my last paper for the semester then it's home sweet home for me....can't wait to go back home...i so wanna sleep for the whole two weeks and i don't wanna think bout all those stuffs that have been disturbing me....

don't wanna think bout exams anymore knowing how I'm gonna fail....
don't wanna think bout whether I'll be able to go to UK....
don't wanna think bout my feelings anymore and don't wanna disturb myself with my uncontrollable feelings...
don't wanna think bout whether all that he is saying is true or not....

just wanna go back and relax and go have fun and don't wanna bother myself anymore...i know it's problems that needs fixing otherwise i'm gonna have a hard time later on when i return....

do u feel the need to be with someone just because you feel the need to have someone there?
does it make any sense if i say that one just wanna be with another because one knows that one can't have another?
see how all my life,my world just revolves around LOVE,love,LoVe and more lOvE.....
i wish one day,i would find the one and i would be so much in love that i could leave all this behind me....
sometimes, i just don't know how you truly feels because you just act differently in front of different people....
just tell me what i need to do to have the one you which i truly know....

smiles

2009-04-15T13:59:00.003+08:00

I'm glad that we talked about it this morning...was feeling so moody and down the whole day and night through....anyways,sorry for always giving you so much trouble...i know..I'm so moody and totally no control over my own feelings....pathetic....but thanks for caring.... *smiles* ....had a pang of guiltiness for making you not study...all the best for your paper later on...

QoTD

2009-04-14T16:37:00.003+08:00

Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent. ~Eleanor Roosevelt

just finish reading a friend's blog....couldn't really do anything for her but wished she would feel better soon...known that she wanted to go for the open sea swim so much...it's just because she seems to be a little too occupied with her studies,assignments and everything else this semester...if she wants, she could have my shoulder to bite....

feeling sleepy ALL the time....this is really frustrating but once i open my books,all i wanna do is just sleep...damn this aunt of mine....hopefully she leaves before i go back home...don't wanna have to bring so much tissues back for her.....

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep. ~Carl Sandburg

love is truly meant for idiots.....and to be able to quote it, i must be a class of them....keep falling.....and as i fall, keep doing embarrassing things...don't wanna fall again...i wanna stand up and for now,i wanna stand on my own two feet...don't wanna lean on anyone again....as i lean on someone else,realize that no one could be trusted to care for you....even though you might be less selfish than others to let me lean on you for a little while, but too bad you don't wanna bear me....

T I R E D ~nia~

2009-04-13T23:41:00.005+08:00

my monthly aunt is here to visit me again...and man, do i feel tired and sleepy?even though i just woke up, my whole body feels like i've just came back from war....and i just keep yawning.....i really need to focus and remember all these case with weird names....it would be great if there's only 2 or 3 choices of names in this world....maybe so, cases would just be A v B, B v C, C v D....den no matter how i memorize, the case would never be that far apart...

i received a message from Agogo yesterday which goes something like this:

Congratulations! Good News for INTI College Students. Exams have been postponed up to June, to confirm, go to site http://www.stopdreaming&startstudying.com/ Best wishes!

P/S: sorry for being moody....and i'm sorry if i'm not myself nowadays....

stress + tired =Moody Quinn

good luck everyone

2009-04-13T03:17:00.003+08:00

next week a.k.a tomorrow will be the official beginning of exam week....thus i send like a million good luck text to my friends and the normal reaction one would get is to say thanks and wish u good luck as well....well, that's what i got but the only thing is that, i am like already halfway through my exam and only like 5 people wished me before tonight...even though i've posted it on my msn, facebook and my blog...how saddening for no one to notice me at all....

anyways, it's the thought that counts and thanks guys for wishing me...before the exam or halfway through the exam....

P/S:i still love my friends....

guys suck...

2009-04-12T01:06:00.003+08:00

have been writing in lots of walls (facebook) and my personal messages as some of you might have notice....kinda felt sick of guys....without them, lots of things won't happen....

love wouldn't have happened...

most of all, nothing that they do would hurt any one else...sometimes, guys can be so silly and not to forget, stupid....buy yet, sometimes they can be sweet and nice and they can give us warm fussy feeling.....

maybe u should stop lying...

maybe you should just know that what you're doing is wrong...

maybe you should know that i'm talking and pin pointing at you....

sometimes, girls just cry because of silly stuffs...

how could you cry because he doesn't trust you?

how could you cry if that's the way he thinks about you?

why would you even bother or why would you even try to impress him?

guys that makes you cry just aren't worth it....

girls are just silly....but they just can't control it...

QoTD: those that makes you cry just aren't worth it, the one that are worth it wouldn't want you to cry....

P/S:this is a totally random post.....

lazy lazy Quinn

2009-04-11T17:28:00.004+08:00

am i lazy or what?just realise that i'm the only one who keeps blogging even though i'm in the midst of exam season....damn, i'm lazy and i know i'm just giving myself a chance to procastinate....it's actually all your fault....yes u....u know that right....because you guys keep coming back to read my blog and to care for me,you're actually the reason i'm blogging....hahaha!!!anyways, i do feel glad for that you guys do keep up with my blog....without you guys, i would just be talking to myself..... *smiles* and not be able to rant to anyone else...

p/s: but on a serious note, my blog is amazing, ain't it?i even got spammers.... Hahaha!!!

halfway through....

2009-04-11T17:00:00.003+08:00

everyone looks so tired during exam season and i've never seen so many students in one place like this except and only during exam season....everywhere like common room and the library is seriously packed....you need to be there either way early or way late to have a place....well,at least the students here do study huh......some people even sleep and eat here!!!

stress level is increasing...

anyways, gotta go back to studying now....need to pick up my slack....sleepy sleepy me...

need to cram all these stupid cases into my small brain....

P/S:still missing ur hugs and kisses....

1 down, 3 more to go

2009-04-09T02:21:00.002+08:00

just done with one paper and yet, there's still 3 more left.... feeling so stressed out and yet, not really doing anything....it kinda feels like since you know that you're gonna fail, might as well just give up on all of it right?feels like there's too many thinigs happening and life is passing you by too fast and you can't stop it.....gonna unleash all my different colours later on...anyways, what needs to be done needs to be done right?i really should stop procastinating....maybe someone should wake me up and show me how important all of these are....i really don't wanna stay back for another year....it's gonna be even more stress and the embarrasement...not only to me and my friends but most of all...to my parents....

besides that,i haven't even finish my university application and 4 more of my assignments are not even handed in yet....arghhhh!!!!i gotta pick up now....see how lazy i am...i know that i need to finish up so much things and yet i'm not doing it...

currently trying to finish up my personal statement and yet, reading equity & trusts on the other hand....i'm so multi-tasking....haha!!!!

p/s: can't regret what have had happen....all i can do is try harder and work harder...

Mid Sessional

2009-04-07T19:46:00.005+08:00

April 8 (Wednesday)

Land Law

-prepared halfway

April 10 (Friday)

Equity and Trusts

-totally not prepared

April 16 (Thursday)

Law of Torts

-quarter prepared

April 17 (Friday)

Company Law

-so lost

How am i gonna make it through.... *sobs* should've studied harder *kicks herself in her head*

too dumb to ever learn my lesson and guess what?mid sessionals is 20 % ...i'm screwed...dumb ass me...

just saw a friend and he guessed that i'm a BIT student because he said i'm lazy...OMG....it's that obvious that i'm a procastinator.....i seriously need to step up....

youth fountain

2009-04-07T08:40:00.000+08:00

got this off of Tania's blog

Lifebook 2009

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time for prayer

6. Play more games

7. Read more books than you did in 2008

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day

9. Sleep for 7 hours

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, smile

Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

13. Don't over do ; keep your limits

14. Don't take yourself so seriously ; no one else does

15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

16. Dream more while you are awake

17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present

21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you

22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

23. Smile and laugh more

24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

25. Call your family often

26. Each day give something good to others

27. Forgive everyone for everything

28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6

29. Try to make at least three people smile each day

30. What other people think of you is none of your business

31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right things

33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful

34. GOD heals everything

35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change

36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up

37. The best is yet to come

38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not the least :

40. Do forward this to everyone you care about.

Tamia -Officially Missing You

2009-04-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

All I hear is raindrops

Falling on the rooftop

Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go

Cause this pain I feel

It wont go away

And today I’m officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape

But I fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today

I’m officially missing you

[Chorus]

(Ohhhh)

can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby said it stays on my mind

And I, and I, I’m officially

[Verse Two]

All I do is lay around

Two ears full tears

From looking at your face on the wall ( face on the wall)

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all

i don’t know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess its safe to say babe safe to say that

I'm, I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]

(Ohhhh) can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby said it stays on my mind

And I, and I, I’m officially

[Verse Two]

[Bridge]

Well I thought I could just get over you baby

But I see that’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way

To let go of you

[Chorus]

Its official

You know that I’m missing youoohhh

Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops

ooohhh yeah

And I’m officially missing

youooooooooooooooooo.........

mmmmmmmm

he called and i wanted so much to tell him how i felt....but all i did was just kept quiet....i don't know what to say or do....it's healing but it felt like the wound opened up again....what am i suppose to do?what exactly is it that you want me to do?if you want to let it go and you want me to let it go, the least you could do is help me....when i text you, you don't text back..there's only so much a girl can do......

facebook addict

2009-04-04T01:18:00.000+08:00

i saw a really funny note on facebook today....click this link...but it really does makes lots of sense....especially since now i'm so totally hooked on facebook...i need to go to rehab.....maybe lay low of facebook for a little while...only if i can.....

gonna go celebrate CH's birthday later...it's a surprise but i doubt she'll read my blog anytime soon....anyways,her birthday's on Sunday and we're just celebrating in advance....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL...

mid sessional starting in... 7 days....

2009-04-01T04:06:00.003+08:00

i found a quote from my friend and it sounded so meaningful...

We all want to fall in love. Why? Bcos dat experience makes us feel completely alive. It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,but dat doesn't diminish its value,bcos we r left wit memories dat we treasure 4 d rest of our lives.

that's why i said to admit love rather than to deny it....

feelings are like breeze...they come and go...

but sometimes they stay on a little longer than they're suppose to....it'll be fine if it's a soft, soothing breeze ut sometimes it'll grow stronger and eventually it'll turn into a storm...and yet sometimes, there will be a storm which could somehowstill be soothing and yet strong enough to sweep you off your feet... the horrible storm is slowly passing me by...thanks to dd for showing me so much care...but i still doubt his feelings for me because he doesn't really show me how he feels....but i'm still thankful for him though....

thanks for everything....

P/S:HAPPY APRIL FOOL,GUYS!!!
may all ur pranks not get u guys into trouble....don't believe what anyone tell u on this fateful day...

a little too not over you

2009-03-28T23:23:00.004+08:00

i really wanna act like nothing happened but i can't...how do you just move on?just like that?did all that we just had an illusion?anyways,knowing there's no chance of us being together again...I'm slowly trying to withdraw myself from everything that consist of you....
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How come facebook is not working on my laptop.... *sobs* why is my laptop always giving me problems?totally unreliable.....anyways,being a facebook whore,i won't be able to log on for a little while now....and that's totally bad...no more pet society...no more doing stupid quizzes...maybe it's something kinda good in a way....i'll be able to pay attention to my studies and stop log in in to everyone else's facebook and checking out their status....
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shit....i'm feeling so sleepy and i have class at 8 tomorrow but i can't go to bed because in another 8 more days,i'm having my first mid sessionals paper and not to complain but i swear...it's no easy task revising for it...probably because i'm a procrastinator....like right now,i'm kinda studying in a way but somehow,i'm still with my blog and thinking bout so many things at the same time and kinda stil wishing i'll pass....

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Shall update again soon when i stop feeling so guilty for not staring blankly into my notes....

bitches and hoes....

2009-03-22T23:20:00.003+08:00

woah..it's been long since i last blog...sorry blog...it's just that i stopped having the motivation to stick my face on the screen and start expressing how i feel...anyways,what's with my title huh?sorry but i'm back and i'm meaner than before....

a girlfriend of my friend called me in the afternoon and guess what she said?

"stop calling my bf.last warning"

does anyone find this not funny?

Number 1: it wasn't me that called your bf...it was him who called me...

Number 2: if you can't keep your bf heart by your side,how many people are you gonna text it to?(don't you just find it easier to just control your bf instead of all those people around him?)

Number 3: she did asked me how i would feel if my bf did the same thing?well,i didn't tell her this but i would've probably dump his sorry ass......

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there's this guy who's kinda growing on me.....it's his birthday today and i doubt he'll be free thus, i gave him his gift in advance.... i don't think so he liked his gift very much because he just kept complaining... but i'm glad that at least he tried to appreciate it....

anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABDALLAH!
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you know how when you really want something and you can't have it, you'll just feel so down that you can't really function well...well,it's kinda the same when i think about him....i know he don't want it because he's afraid of getting hurt... and i've tried controlling how i felt because i know i shouldn't be selfish.... but sometimes it does gets out of hand and it seems like i'm the one ending up getting hurt.... it really felt painful and i don't wanna feel pain again....i feel like telling him i'm letting go....i think i might tell him tomorrow....

it hurts

2009-02-28T14:28:00.003+08:00

it hurts to know someone u care about don't care back for you...but you just don't know what happened to have had caused the relationship to go bad...anyways,i really do appreciate the friendship no matter if it was in the past or if it's gonna heal,i'll still appreciate it as i never regret things that once made me smile...but it really hurt deep down....

updates!

2009-02-25T03:08:00.002+08:00

it seems like it's been so damn long ever since i updated my blog right?i know....

first up, remember my event CHAP GOH VALENTINE :

well,to sum it up,it was a success.....not to brag, but the people that came truly exceeded anyone's expectation...anyways, i was too busy on that night to be taking any photos but check out Yiling's or Abby's blog for more photos..... the preparation was a serious drill and i promise not to hold any more events when i'm in INTI but the process of it all was kinda fun...and somehow, you begin to learn what and who a friend should be... thanks to all the committees and helpers for making this a event a fucking success.... it couldn't have been any better...

Next up, my life:

life has been treating me fairly well as no bruises or cuts have affected me yet... but i do feel moody for the past few days now....somehow,i'm annoyed at people but somehow,i don't know who's the cause of it all...but i do still smile when i'm with certain people....and i'm happy too at times....

melissa said she's moving out of the room...hmm, she said she's moving in with her sis... anyways, putting all that aside, i wish her all the best....

my external hard disk totally got screwed after the event the other day, gonna take it in for repair soon...hopefully, it's still workable....

anyways, it's 4 30 AM right now....gonna have 10 AM tomorrow... or more precisely, TODAY....toodles...

selfish nia...

2009-02-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

i know an event need the help of a lot of people to make it work but that is if and only if the people would work togethere or better yet...work....i surely hope all those tickets are selling well...even though i've given them tothe committees but seems like the market is not really big...anyways, gonna be really busy....gotta go....toodles..

waiting lounge

2009-01-24T14:48:00.001+08:00

currently,i'm at the waiting lounge with Seow Wen waiting for our bus at 4 pm....just finished lunch and heard from Chen Hueh that the traffic is moving but......SLOWLY....anyways,should be thankful that at least, at least it is moving....shall update till here because wanna go pei Seow Wen....

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!!

Chinese New Year

2009-01-18T20:17:00.002+08:00

going back home real soon....next next week will be Chinese New Year as most people would have had notice and i'll be having a one-week holiday and i wanna go around visiting my friends and some friends will be coming down...anyways,wanna spend my time wisely as i might not be able to celebrate Chinese New Year back home for a few years....

my baby

2009-01-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

i just realised i got a baby......abby said in her blog that my event is like my baby....yea la....first event in my second year ma....and after that i promise i will not hold any large posts in any events or club anymore....because it's really just too much work and i really don't wanna get involve with things like this anymore....anyways,i really hope that on that day, many people will be attending the event and that there won't be time where the whole scene would turn "cold"...anyways,even though it's just the beginning of the semester but classes have already started and it's so busy...and soon, *i hope* i will be flying off to UK d....anyways, u guys should and could check out my event on facebook and hopefully those who can attend do come k?i will put up flyers everywhere....

haha!!!!!

Chap Goh Valentine

2009-01-13T20:01:00.002+08:00

been really busy rushing up and down doing my event preparation....anyways,just a few more weeks and i'll be free....yippeee!!!!anyways,hope my event will be a success.....*praying hard*

gonna go take my bath now...gotta head out d....

happy new year

2008-12-31T17:33:00.003+08:00

today will be the last time i do a lot of things....as today would be the last day of the year 2008.....yippeee!!!!this year had been a long and meaningful year....i found even more people who care about me....and i found those who said they care and i even found some who act like they cared....but there's a few peopke who i found myself being disappointed in.....there's this "friend" who said or more or less act like she cares but somehow,she's just too busy for me.....

anyways,let's usher in the new year with a big welcome and a warm smile...there would be new resolution and there's this one resolution which i really really wanna reach....anyways, would like to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR and may all of you have a fantastic countdown tonight.....wooohooo!!!!!!

thanks....

2008-12-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

this few days,some spammers have been spamming in my chatbox and i can't seem to be annoyed...it made me realize how much more matured i am compared to before....anyways,i just don't know why people tend to whisper behind you instead of just telling it to my face...it's not like i would kill them but having lived so long,i realize that there's no way everyone would like me but i do at times try to be nice to people....well, and not forgetting, i do tend to be nasty and rude at times too.....

on a totally different subject, christmas is just around the corner and guess what, i'm going to cook turkey again this year...i'm going to give it another try so whoever dare to come try it, don't hestitate to give me a call and come on over to my house.... ^_^ .......

sudden urge

2008-12-10T14:42:00.001+08:00

i wanna stop studying and i wanna open up a club....they seem to earn way more money then professionals...

irresponsible people make me mad...

2008-12-04T09:17:00.002+08:00

some people are just so irresponsible and they make me mad...if someone delegate a job to u...do the job well and whatever responsibility..hold yourself responsible la...why wanna blame it on someone else?shit head....some people are just this way and she might now feel or even know that she's at fault...how horrible is that?man,sometimes she just pissed me off....

p/s:if u feel that person is u..just keep it to yourself and don even bothering asking me who is it...because i don't wanna say....and fuck off....

random pictures from my phone

2008-11-25T11:29:00.005+08:00

see...everyday also traffic jam only....

bad feeling..

2008-11-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

all of a sudden i have a very bad feeling...sort of a really dark feeling of death... and people weeping away....maybe it could be because i've seen too many sad things these few days or is it just because of a sudden whisk of loneliness....

going to go sing K tomorrow....so going to sleep le....

lil things that make life easier

2008-11-21T16:40:00.002+08:00

i finally know how important the photocopy machine aka printer is to an office....the photocopy machine broke down in the office and.....ehem.....my boss say if got important document ask me walk across the street to photocopy wo....wuu wuuu...he bully me...i had an important document to print out but luckily i printed it out before the photocopy man came....so now kinda free lo..because photocopy machine spoil so even if i type out any document also cannot print...i shall only walk across the street if got important documents....mummy say don simply go out if got no important things ....must listen to mummy's advise...

i p[a]s[s]e[d]

2008-11-19T10:53:00.002+08:00

though not with flying colours and I'm not happy with my results but I'm glad that i passed....

i don't know I'll be working till when but with the petrol and toll price....i can't possibly work till school reopens...

anyways,I'm free now as boss is not in and i don't know what else to do besides helping my colleagues with some work...

my boss had some teeth problem so i doubt he'll be back today....anyways,get well soon o....

scared

2008-11-17T11:18:00.002+08:00

feeling so afraid and nervous right now....results will be out soon....i just wanna pass....man,am i nervous or what?my heart is beating so fast,i feel like I'm about to faint....and i so don't have the mood to work....if i pass,I'm going to go celebrate this weekend...if i don't,I'll just cry my eyes out....but of course..no one would wanna fail and i don't hope that anyone does....

results

2008-11-16T22:36:00.002+08:00

my results might be coming out tomorrow...what am i going to do?i'm going to feel sad for the whole holiday...i know it....i just know i won't be able to make it through....

p/s:going to go cry myself to sleep....*sob sob* stupid fever

rest...

2008-11-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

not going to go out today....today has been a pretty busy day for me...hmm..something bad happened today....*sob sob* i got a ticket for parking.... *cries out loud* but thank GOD it's only RM 15.....but but... so mafan... have to pay in Penang..... i actually got put coins one...just late half an hour to refill only ma.... wakakaka!!!! so very tired la...that's why today don plan to go anywhere....i did so much work today and i'm so proud of it...finally get to open my own file....anyways, very tired now and still haven't taken my bath.... tomorrow is a new day...hmmm, though it's tiring,i'm proud to say i'll be able to learn so much...

finally,i updated

2008-11-07T12:37:00.003+08:00

sorry dears for not updating my blog for quite some time...had been busy ever since the exams...anyways, i'm finally done with exams and guess what,i'm doing my attachment now..i'm currently in the office and hehe...i'm not slacking k?i finished part of my job and now i'm taking a break...haiz...so much work to do but i guess it's ok as i'll be able to learn more like this den...had been working since the 5th and had been busy ever since then but the first day was kinda free and not that busy...but days that follow should be really busy den..i gotta arrange all the files according to years later...and guess what,the files are way a lot...*sob sob*.....i thought attachments are all about making coffee and photostating?haha!anyways,i'm thankful but the only thing is that i don't like driving all the way here...after one month,i'm so sure i'll be so sick of driving....shall update again soon but gotta go continue my work now....

what is love without trust?

2008-10-31T05:27:00.003+08:00

Love Without Trust
by Yolanda Rhoades
It seems no matter where you are in a relationship

it's always lacking trust,

and like a key opens a door,

trust is what opens a heart.

Without trust you begin to worry day and night

somehow gaining insecurities within yourself

that makes you question the love you two share.

You start to feel unworthy,

you have so much to say,

will there ever be trust or just that constant pain,

because of those feelings there's an emptiness in your heart.

you feel it's easiest to just move on,

but you wonder if you'll ever find a love so strong,

so just take his hand,

put your trust in him,

because love without trust isn't love at all.....

10 hours to go

2008-10-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

i still have a few more hours left before i sit for my first final paper...i feel totally unprepared...i don't know what else to do?i'm F-ing sleepy and i haven't finish memorising so many cases and statutes....i seriously don't hope to fail.....i want to forget all about it....

love is complicated...

2008-10-28T14:52:00.005+08:00

no matter how simple one wants love to be, it somehow always turns out complicated...i've tried and i've tried....i've tried keeping things as simple as it could be but somehow,problems always arise...is it because relationship consist of two people thus it needs constant communication?
what about the saying "silence is golden"?

somehow,trust is really really important in relationship...without trust,how could the relationship still go on?even though you do tell me when you hang out with girls and things you do with girls,i still chose to trust you at the end of the day because i want this to work and i wanna know that i'll be able to trust you even when i give u the freedom to do more then you should...

i don't like explaining myself but i do get nervous everytime you get mad at me...even when i know i've done nothing wrong .... i'm feeling kinda sick of this feeling...

maybe this holiday,it would be a trial for both of us...to see how strong our relationship is....i pray for the best to happen...

stolen

2008-10-28T04:12:00.009+08:00

got something interesting of Kenji , szien's friend blog...

►LEO - THE SEX MANIAC (7/23-8/22) Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ***... u might end up crying...

►VIRGO - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER (8/23-9/22) Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it.Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart..

►SCORPIO - THE VIRGIN (10/23-11/21) Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person.

►AQUARIUS - THE ONE U CAN'T TOUCH (1/20-2/18) Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.
►TAURUS - THE BAD BOY OR GIRL (4/20-5/20) Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Best kisser. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out
if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

►CANCER - HARD TO CATCH THEIR HEART (6/22-7/22) Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long- term relationships, if you can actually get them to stick around. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Normally not a Fighter, but will if neccessary. Someone loves them right now, they jut dont know it.

►LIBRA - THE PIMP (9/23-10/22) Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

►PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT (2/19-3/20) EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with.

►ARIES - THE PLAYER (3/21-4/19) Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed...(hahaha)Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

►CAPRICORN - THE SEXY ONE (12/22-1/19) Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word.Rare to find. Caring. Smart. Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Amazing in the you know where..!!! Bit of naughty.The one and only.Sincere..very cheeky.

►GEMINI--HARD TO LOVE (5/21-6/21) Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Good personalities.
Loves relationships. Addictive. Loud

Happy Deepavali everyone

2008-10-27T21:37:00.007+08:00

today is a very special day for some as today is Deepavali ... though i'm not one who took part in this celebration,i would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Indian friends a "Happy Deepavali"... and thanks to Mogenis for inviting me to her house but too bad i'm not back in BM...

woke up at 5 something today...my time has been upside down these past few weeks....i sleep during the day and wake up by morning...even though i do spend time reading my books but somehow,i forget everything and when i say everything i seriously mean everything....

Agogo asked me today when he saw me "why am i sad?"....i didn't know i was looking sad but i do feel sad inside...it's eating me up bit by bit but i keep telling myself,it's ok...i'm going to be back home soon...everything will be better soon...

someone seems mad at me for leaving him here...and i do feel guilty for leaving him here as well...how will it be for two whole months?

i was really mad at him when he told me the other day to spend more time with my friends... and to go mend the broken friendship...i feel really mad because i don't live my life this way and i seriously hate to have people telling me what to do when they don't really know me that well....

it's a SUNDAY

2008-10-26T20:52:00.003+08:00

today is Sunday and guess what?i went to church today...willingly...haha!today's sermon was kinda boring...probably because i haven't slept for the whole night and to be honest,i was yawning through half of the sermon..*shy* anyways, i got something from someone i met today and to be honest,i've forgotten his name....but thanks a bunch for the band...

gonna upload the photos i took at church soon....

gotta go now...toodles...

bored of life

2008-10-25T19:51:00.003+08:00

life has been really harsh recently and so many things have been going through my head...i can't concentrate and time is really running out....just wanna get through everything and let better time comes....studies are fun at time but it could get really stressful as well...friends could bring you fun but sometimes,their just shitty and bitchy....

last night

2008-10-24T23:10:00.003+08:00

i don't want anymore......

my view after all that...

will the time slow down?

2008-10-22T01:01:00.002+08:00

time seems to be running really fast this few days...all i've been doing is watch as time goes by...as day turned to night ans vice versa...so many things have been bothering me and i'm really not happy bout it....i wanna scream my lungs out and i wanna stab myself....i'm really looking forward towards the holiday but i don't wanna leave everyone behind....

the finals are coming to the last bend and it don't seem to look that far away...it feels like time is always running out....and after the finals,i have to start working..how stressful is that....man...i'm finally feeling old...finally feeling that time is not enough and time to finally realise that i shouldn't slack around anymore....

bottled up

2008-10-16T16:00:00.001+08:00

so many things happened recently and so many things are on my mind but who can i tell all my problems and worries to?everyone is busy with their studies and assignments...i don't wanna burden anyone will any of my complaints and whining...

i'm beginning to be really calculative and i do not like the way this is headed...i act kinda childish at time and even the slightest thing could get me angry...that's why i'm trying not to be near people i care about so that i don't explode and hurt anyone...i'm beginning to lose my focus and what's really important to me and i'm drifting away...who could i ask for help from?

P/S:everyone has their own problems and fears...
hold back your tears and learn to stand on your own two feet and be strong...

back from dinner

2008-10-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

just came back from dinner and i know i should start studying now otherwise i'll be sleepy and tired later on....hmphh....i've been procrastinating so much lately and it's eating up my soul....i don't wanna have to repeat the whole year or even another semester....i'll be so tired of it...and i don't wanna be burning my parents money too....

i don't wanna be another burden to my family...i'm sorry for being so busy and letting my priorities out of sight this few days...i'll try my best to keep up with it and i know i've been acting kinda childish these few days...but somehow,something inside me snapped and i seem to be so calculative nowadays...

The Real Deal

2008-10-11T16:33:00.002+08:00

We are always searching in life

For that special thing

That thing that makes us fly without wings

When I close my eyes, every single night

All I see is that beautiful sight

That thing I want to touch and hold

That thing better than silver and gold

This thing shares my hopes and dreams

And helps me understand how love should be

It will stand by my side

And will dry my tears when I cry

It will be my best friend

Who will be there till the end

There's nothing in this world

I'd rather feel

Than to be in love with the real deal

good morning people

2008-10-11T13:10:00.002+08:00

hey!how's everyone this fine morning?exam is up in two more weeks and i'm still procastinating here...i really wanna study but there's always excuses not to..anyways,shan't hang around the net for long as i don't wanna give myself excuses anymore....the weather seems hot around here today...probably cause it's in the afternoon....i really wanna pass all the papers...

friends

2008-10-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

sick of everything that has been going on around here..so sick and tired of all the lies and cheats and by being friends,there should be no need for hiding around...how is it all going to end?i don wanna see it all go down but i know when the trouble comes,it's hard to go back to the way it was before...