i hate it so much when i obviously knew the truth and yet that person still decided to lie to me..what is it with people and lies?why do u have to lie?if u have it or u did it..just fucking admit it...no point in lying..when i learn of the truth,i would hate u even more right..fuck...
Written at 12:46 AM on Wednesday, July 25, 2007 0 comment(s)
I'll be going back this weekend for my grandpa's birthday and to meet up with a few of my friends and family...i just found out something...one of my friend's is already hooked with a guy..but i feel kinda sad that i didn't hear it from her mouth..well,i guess it's OK considering that the guy's in her life and i wasn't and was never important in her life..well,i just hope they are happy with each other...well, i guess,in a few more years,we won't even be talking to each other...well,just can't wait to get back home but i guess not much people will know that I'm back considering i only told one person and practically no one reads my blog except a few of my good friends....can't wait to eat durians..yummy yummy...
hmmm...what she looking at?
hahaha!!!so happy..just finish test...
edna's stress look before exam...
don't try to hide..it doesn't work...
the down side of living in an all girl's block....
cute ma cute ma??
my friend's roomie gave to us de...
mine's the cutest right....
this is the porridge that i cooked for tomorrow's dinner...it consists of things that people say shouldn't be together...peanuts,mushrooms,century eggs and the main ingredient,rice...I'll cook it over night and it shall be my dinner tomorrow...Edna's sick and she shall eat this as dinner with me o...
yesterday night i cooked my first dessert in college..i cooked red bean with pulut hitam...i dono how it taste because to tell the truth,i hate red beans all along...so i haven't tasted it at all...i wanted to put the photo i snap of the red bean but it's too dark in colour d...so if i was to upload it,i don't think so anyone would know what is that also...maybe later I'll post the photo of the ABC soup i cooked on Friday...waiting for my friend,Carly to wake up to send me the photo...haiz...really pig la she..sleep so long...Carly even bought macaroni which i have totally no idea of cooking...well,i guess I'll just leave that up to her to worry la...it's kinda fun to be cooking in college..only difficulty is that i have scarce resources...haiz...
yesterday i went to the pasar malam (my only source of place to get raw vegetables) and i bought a few veges to cook A B C soup...i bought 2 onions,4 potatoes,2 cubes of ikan bilis, 4 tomatoes and 2 carrots....hmmm,well,me n my friends started chopping up the vegetables at around 10 something den we just dump everything into the slow cooker...it taste so sweet and filled my whole room with the smell of onions...i hate raw onions...and now my room is filled with onions smell..it's all Edna's fault...
I'll be having my first law test of my semester four in a few more hours...surprisingly,i don't feel nervous...maybe because i still have a few more hours...now feeling a little sleepy d..maybe will sleep a little while first den will wake up to continue my revision....ha ha!!!if not later i might just fall asleep in class...
today i received a friend request in my friendster from an old crush of mine who have had really crushed my heart...well,we were friend for 3 years of which i liked him for 2....well,i guess during that time i was really naive and stupid i guess....that's why i couldn't see the malicious prick that he was...well,just now i viewed his profile and i don't know why a feeling of anger and hatefulness took over me and it almost made me choked...during the three years of friendship,a lot of things happened and a lot of lies were told...i guess,our friendship was mainly based on a lot of lies...i really appreciate that friendship we had during that time but i really despise him now...thanks for letting me live in denial during that period of time...but i finally took over my own life and even though i might not always be happy like i used to be during that time,i am just happy no longer living a lie....should i accept the friend request or not?i might be disturbed at the thought that i might regret not accepting his friend request but i also hate it if everything came back to me and I'll go through that period of sadness again...
just now i went to cut mushrooms for my porridge and i was washing the scissors and i cut myself with a scissors....i forgotten that scissors could be sharp and when i wash it i sliced the blades of the scissors through my thumb...however,not much blood donated to the drain...just kinda difficult to sms now...haha...my scissors are evil and they have a mind of their own..ahhhh!!!!!*sorry,acting silly gain*....sorry..keep on telling "cold" jokes nowadays..mixing with "cold" ppl too much d...haha!!
you will always be there in my heart..thanks for always being there for me...
this one is for you daddy...I love you daddy...
A father just like you
I just want to let you know
You mean the world to me
Only a heart as dear as yours
Would give so unselfishly
The many things you've done
All the times that you were there
Help me know that deep down inside
How much you really care
Even though I might not say
I appreciate all you do
Richly blessed is how i feel
Having a father just like you
This is one for my dearest mummy,
Giving from the heart
A mother seems to specialize in doing thoughtful deeds,
Before you ask she understands your problems and your needs.
Quietly she does her best to help,inspire and cheer,
And everything looks brighter right away because she's near.
She always has a lot to dobut still finds time to spare,
To listen and to give advice because she really cares.
She helps because she wants to, she finds joy in being kind,
And making others happy is the first thing on her mind.
She makes this world a better place by practicing the art,
Of reaching out to others and by giving from the heart.
This one is for my family,
Our family is a circle
of strength and love.
With every birth and every
union,the circle grows.
Every joy shared adds more love,
Every crisis faced together
makes the circle stronger.
i love you guys very much..thanks for always being there for me and i hope no matter what happen,we will face everything together....
in another one month time,my results will be out d..till then i just have to study hard for my A2 and pray that i did fairly well in my AS...tort and contract is really interesting with all it's cases..but kinda difficult to put so much in my little brain...miss durian so much...i wanna eat durian lo..sumore my hostel keep on having the smell of durian...hmm...tern chern lost his phone again..it's the second time this year..haiz...i dono what he does with his phone...if i lost my phone,i think i'll cry till my eyes pop out....haha!!!
i'm now having my fours hours break in between classes...today for brunch,i had nasi lemak in the bakery...in the nasi lemak,there is a piece of chicken,some peanuts,two slices of cucumbers and a keropok which you usually see in indian food...well,i cleaned my plate as usual seeing that i am the "tam chiak po" i always am...as usual,carly didn't eat her cucumber and abby too...guess what's abby's excuse for not eating her cucumber and peanuts?she said "they are not suitable for the nasi lemak"..what an excuse...nasi lemak has was in our malay culture for so long d and peanuts and cucumber were always a part of it..abby must have had came from some other planet thus she feels that peanuts and cucumber shouldn't be in nasi lemak....
came back from basketball at around 8....after basketball,tummy start having weird feeling...den start feeling so weird again..went to toilet den came back to room to rest for around 2 hours...den went to bath den now lying on bed with that queer feeling again...sort of like something is pulling your tummy muscle once in a while..makes you wanna shrink like a prawn...everytime after eating solid food,my tummy starts being like so...if one was to eat porridge for one whole week,mostly white porridge,would it cause your tummy to be so clean you can't eat solid food?well,mostly if people are sick they eat like that too right..after they are back to normal,they still can eat solid food right?well,whole body aching right now,aside from the tummy ache,what do you expect after playing so hard at basketball after not playing for so long?just hope i won't have tummy ache during class tomorrow....if not,haiz....later law sir keep on thinking i trying to escape from class...feel so tired now but i still have law homework to do....hmphh....
"what are the difference between private and public nuisance?"
my room is as warm as the inside of an oven...it really makes me feel sleepy most of the time...right now i really feel so sleepy but if i do sleep,i won't be able to sleep at night d...so no matter what i have to restrain myself from sleeping..but i really feel slepy now...later they sumore wanna go play basketball...sleepy gain....haiz...my clock is totally opposite d..when i should be sleeping,i'm awake...when i'm suppose to be awake,i'm sleepy...
Guys...realize that the girl holding onto u..is PERFECT in her own special way.
- The way she laughs..
- The way she sleeps..
- The way she loves you..
- The way she tries to please you...
Always remember that.
She can always get up and walk away,getting someone else who can love her more.
For all you know,there is someone out there wooing her already,but she is rejecting,a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now,fufill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.Understand that.
Imagine this, guys.
- When you are holding her today...
- and then you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.
- and then you run back to her...
- and u do the same....
- but you see love in her eyes...
- What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you NOT because you are
- good looking,
- have money,
- buy her things,
- make her parents happy,
- or that you have a car.
She loves you for who you are.Your every touch, every word you say,everything you do.
Guys.Cherish and appreciate your girl.Don't break her fragile heart.She is the only one who can love you that way.You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.For everything she has done for you,theleast you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.
feeling so hungry right now....hmmm,i should have a light breakfast at 8 den after my law class,i should makan brunch at 10 at cafeteria...hmm..what should i have today?not much choice to choose from but don't feel like eating anything heavy...noodles?i just ate noodles today...hmm,rice?maybe should eat rice for dinner....nvm...whatever stephy having for brunch then I'll have the same thing.this way,i don't have to choose what i should eat...after brunch i should come back to my room because I'll be having a two hours break....then after that at 2 I'll be having econs again...econs is so confusing and i hate confusing stuff...because this way,i won't be able to understand it....and the topic we are in now requires a lot of mathematics skills and i practically suck at my maths...
just as hungry as i am...
i can't sleep at night and then i'll be so tired during the day..what a bothersome thing...well,i looked up the net and it suggest me to practise a few things..Practice "Good Sleep Hygiene." Here are some tips for you to try:
insomnia is chronic, it is not a good thing to do, says Dr. Alex Clerk, head of Stanford Sleep Disorder Clinic in Palo Alto.
No reading or watching TV in bed. These are waking activities. If your
Go to bed when you're sleepy-tired, not when it's time to go to bed by habit.
Wind down during the second half of the evening before bedtime. 90 minutes before bed, don't get involved in any kind of anxiety provoking activities or thoughts.
Do some breathing exercises or try to relax major muscle groups, starting with the toes and ending with your forehead. \
Your bed is for sleeping, if you can't sleep after 15-20 minutes, get up and do something relaxing.
Have your room cool rather than warm.
Don't count sheep, counting is stimulating.
Exercise in the afternoon or early evening, but no later than 3 hours before bedtime.
Don't over-eat, and eat 2-3 hours before bedtime.
Don't nap during the day.
If you awake in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep within 30 minutes, get up and do something else.
Have No coffee, alcohol or cigarettes two to three hours before bedtime.
If you have disturbing dreams or nightmares add an ending that you want.
Schedule a half-hour writing about your concerns and hopes in a journal every night to free up your sleep from processing your dilemmas as much.
Listen to calming music or a self-hypnosis tape for sleep.
If sleep problems persist, contact your physician or mental health professional. Let them know what is happening in your life. Your problem may have either organic or psychological contributors. Sleep disorders are classified as chronic if they persist more than one month. There are of two major categories of sleep disorders. They are Dyssomnias -- when there are problems with the amount, quality or timing of sleep and Parasomnias -- when there are abnormal events occurring during sleep stages.
i don't think and i hope it's not psychological but it has been happening everyday...hopefully,it'll return to normal soon..if not,i also dono what to do d..feel so tired,i could kill myself...
it really hurts to hear someone saying you're being with someone for the sake of his money...well,maybe i am a materialistic girl..i will not deny that fact...but being with someone who's not rich obviously shows that I'm not with him just for the sake of his money..and if he does decide to get me a gift,what the fuck is the problem with everyone beside him??it's not like i ordered him to get me that fucking gift...maybe i should just stop accepting or spending any money that does not belong to me..fuck them...it's my relationship to begin with,not yours...just shut your fucking mouth...it's my choice whether i spend or don't spend his money....and it's my choice to either accept or not to accept his gift....just wash your hands off people's problems...don't you have your own problems to tend to???
after having tummy ache the other day and after resting so much,i felt so much better d now...although sometimes my tummy still feel a little ache....maybe coz didn't eat..it's not that i don't wanna eat..it's just that i don't feel hungry at all...and when i do feel hungry,i feel too lay to cook or no one's here to pei me go mam mam...so practically,this two days i ate 4 slices of bread and 3 cups of milo...wakaka!!!