Written at 11:49 PM on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 0 comment(s)
my baby got hurt again...tsk tsk tsk!how loyal is he...this time around,he hurt a very important part..thank god,it's still workable....next time, i will have lots of baby bear running around...just now,i RAN out to buy surgical tools to sew baby up.... haha!since all my dolls always get hurt from eating too much cotton and from protecting my bed,i decided to get my own surgical tools...
I Learn To Be Strong
Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.
With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.
I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.
With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.
While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.
Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.
So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.
Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.
sometimes,even though i do tell people my problem and what's troubling me...but sometimes,i do prefer to keep some stuffs to myself because i know no one else would understand me...heck,i sometimes don't even understand myself...i don't know what i want,what upsets me,what makes me laugh,what's right and what's wrong....i feel so guilty and sad when i argue with someone i care about..even when i know i'm not at the wrong,i'll just feel really bad...sometimes,the source of our argument might be so small that sometimes,when we think back,we might feel it's not worth it and sometimes,if we are able to argue long enough,we might even forget what we were arguing about....being angry at people really do take a toll on me...i will feel totally washed out just by feeling angry at people...i'm not an angry person...an angry person is one where they grew up in an environment where they feel that being angry and yelling at people is the only way to get things done....well,i'm not like that..in fact,you can almost always see me smiling and laughing all the time...but to know the true me,i don't think so anyone do...i do tell bits and pieces of my history to people...but the most darkest and deepest secret of all,no one knows....my past had been really bad...NO WORRIES,i wasn't abused by my parents....it was just a really bad past and it's really difficult for me to come face to face with it..sometimes,i find it even difficult to face myself just because i find it so hard to understand myself...I get agitated pretty easily...i love myself but sometimes,i wished,i could just take time away from myself...In moral classes,there's always this belief there that people will be able to reincarnate if they are not able to go to nirvana and they could reincarnate into lots of animals,humans being one of them...but reincarnating into humans,there's still a lot of stages..there's the royalty and the normal ones and slaves...how high u r just shows what good deeds you did in the past to be able to have that power..though i may not be from royalty but i truly love my family as they are and i would never trade them for anything else in the world...i used to not get it why would people wanted to acheive nirvana all the time but now,i finally understood it...being a human,you'll still have to work and slave over stuff you might not like..you might still cry and yet laugh,suffer and yet enjoy..being human,is somewhat,God's punishment which is better than Hell but not all that different....sometimes,life just feels like hell and yet,sometimes,there are still things in life worth enjoying...just that,sometimes,SHIT HAPPENS....being in relationships with friends,family and couples really have the exact same feeling as being in love....P/S:
Carly revive my baby and den we went out for dinper=dinner+supper...after that we went for breakfast after hanging out in Abby's room for a while...Rainie will be having her exam tomorrow and she say she won't be sleeping tonight/day....her exam is at 8..well,all the best to her....she said she wanted to go on a diet....a yo-yo one...well,she sound determine but we kept asking her not to because it's really unhealthy..the right way to grow thin is to go on a strict diet with exercise...this way,when you grow thin,you won't have unhealthy skin...well,i wish all go well for her....tomorrow,i'll be cooking spaghetti..Yummy...but well,with such scarce resources,my spaghetti will be quite plain...hopefully it won't taste Bla....
P/S:my baby is well and he can run d...all thanks to Carly...thank God a doctor was on duty....
Written at 10:35 PM on Tuesday, October 30, 2007 0 comment(s)
one of my baby got hurt trying to protect my bed from enemies who not only sat on him and farted but also kept sitting on my bed and making my matress "run shape"<---it will make more sense in cantonese....she hurt her leg badly....let's all spend 1 minute to mourn for her injury...the doctor is not working here anymore and i don have the instruments to make her feel much better..so she'll have to protect the bed this way till i find the stitching tools... she was just doing her job when suddenly,someone attacked and she became...
her wound up close...he said,"don't worry mistress,it's my honour to protect you and the bed...i'll defend u till death..."
O..I feel so touched....I love u baby...
P/S:I'm not crazy....
Farewell My Love
Farewell to you my love,
I can't longer give you my heart,
I kept my love for a long time,
Waiting for you to come back.
Farewell to you my love,
Don't doubt that I don't love you,
You're always on my mind,
And never forget in a time.
Farewell to you and never hate me,
It will hurts me with regrets,
thinking of you in silence,
Makes my heart tears with sadness.
Farewell my love,
My time is over,
I need to go,
And pursue my solemn vow.
people say that if you have once of a true love,you are truly blessed...if so,i think even though i did love,i don't think so i've met my true love yet..i think true love is somewhat like that of a fairy tale...you fall in love and you love,forever and in the end of the story,there will always be a happily ever after...i wanna experience at least one true love before i die...i really do envy those who have had met their soul mates...i hope to be just as lucky as they are...if every relationship i had counted as true love,i don't think so i would be able to appreciate love again....i really do love in every relationship but as true love,i don't think they are...
O,my dearest one,where O where are you?
P/S:do ignore the fact that i'm acting weird here...sorry!
this morning,I've decided to forgive and maybe forget the bad memories which two people gave me...well,yesterday,one of them called me and i finally decided not to be angry at him anymore and talk to him like normal....when i was angry,i would usually go like,"what?","why u call me?" and "anything?" then i would not waste more then one minute on this guy....because of the one message he sent me which made me very angry..he was the guy who message me the "let's not talk anymore" message..if ANY of you guys were following my blog,you guys would know...
another guy which i decided to forgive and forget was the one who lied to me about his relationship with my friend...also in one of my post....well,i think that being angry at people were never my thing...those feelings really drain me out and it only causes me to be angry at people who were dear to me simply because i couldn't yell at those two imbeciles...well,forgiving them really took quite a burden off my shoulders and hopefully,i'll be able to forget those bad memories they gave me...i don't wanna be mad anymore....
exam really seems to take a long time to finish....but after the exam,everyone is going to take a trip here and there....haiz....lonely lonely me..but not to worry,i'll be going to Cambodia and Thailand too....did any of you guys ate
MONKEY BRAIN before? I was told,they tastes like Tofu..I dont know how true is that....but i know it really is costly...well,at the back of my mind,i probably would like to try it out because it will be a once in a lifetime experience but on the other hand,i know i shouldn't because they might extinct if everyone ate their brain..and we might grow lots of hair just like them..hehe!
I'll be getting everyone farewell gifts for the farewell party and everyone better get me something as well... MUST!!!!
i just read the september issue of Cleo and there were a couple of people who lead double lifes...how many of my friends have that?how cool is that...there's this one girl who was pregnant just before she wanted to go into college and she finally called the college to postponed her entry and after 8 months,after the baby was born,she ent to college and her parents took care of the baby...and she would return home to see her baby but no one in her college knew she was a mom....
i got something from Tern Chern's blog...i wanna go......i don't care..i wanna go.....
Many Malaysians have sex before reaching 20
By Annie Freeda Cruez 28 October, 2007
KUALA LUMPUR: Malaysian youth are involved in sexual activities before the age of 20. A national study in 2004 involving 18,805 people (10,718 females and 8,087 males) revealed that the median age they had sex for the first time was 23. The majority of the study group was Malay (56.4 per cent) followed by Chinese (20.6 per cent) and Indian (11.2 per cent).
Out of the 18,805, the majority (72.8 per cent) was married.Male respondents confessed to experiencing sex at the minimum age of 10 and median age of 22 and females at 12 and 24 respectively. The overall median age of marriage was 23 — Chinese (25 years), Indians (23 years), Malays (22 years), Sabah Bumiputera (21 years) and Sarawak (20 years).
Professor Dr Lekhraj Rampal of the Department of Community Health, Faculty of Medicine and Health Sciences at Universiti Putra Malaysia said: “What is of concern is the fact that among the 13,971 respondents who had experienced sex, 38.2 per cent said they had sex before the age of 20.”
The age factor, he said, clearly indicated that those who had sex early were college students and young workers.“Malaysians are now becoming very open when it comes to talking about sex. The unmarried and married talk about sex and it’s time sex education be given emphasis and the public made aware of healthy sexual behaviour, including using condoms to protect against unintended pregnancies and sexually transmitted diseases.”
He said as much as religion and culture encouraged sex after marriage, it could not be denied that younger people engaged in sexual activity.Sexual behaviour, he added, was any action that allowed the expression of one’s feelings, including holding hands and kissing as well as masturbation and penetrative intercourse (per vagina or anal).
He said healthy sexual behaviours were consensual, non-exploitive and honest, and included actions that protected against unintended pregnancies and sexually transmitted diseases.
Presenting a paper on “Sexual Practice in Malaysia” at the two-day conference on Sexuality in Medicine, organised by Universiti Putra Malaysia and the Malaysian Healthy Aging Society at UPM, Dr Rampal warned young Malaysians to be cautious when indulging in sex with unknown partners.
“The person, be it man or woman, may look healthy and sexy but you do not know whether he is a HIV victim or suffering from venereal disease or sexually transmitted diseases (STD). Get a blood test done to ascertain if he/she is free from STD or use a condom.”
Dr Rampal gave this warning because in a survey done to find out how much people knew about HIV and its transmission, the majority of the respondents could not give the right answers to many of the questions.Dr Rampal also stressed that there was a need to educate the young not to fall victim to non-consensual sexual experiences.
“It covers a continuum of behaviours ranging from unwanted verbal advances and unwanted touch to assault and forced sex as well as sex in exchange for
money, gifts, food or protection,” he added.
As for married couples, Dr Rampal said it was important for them to understand how the body works.
tsk tsk tsk...all teenagers are just so full of raging hormones...tsk tsk tsk!must learn to control them o...but most importantly,must always ALWAYS remember to BE SAFE....
don't let them tadpoles get to the eggs o..if not,later cute cute babies will be born o...
I'm so glad that i finally finished a subject after 4 days of torment....today,after exam,I've been slacking the whole day and i decided to give it a rest for a day and not touch any books...tomorrow,i'll be going to the library because of my overdue books..eeks....another day close to the farewell of A-levels and another day closer to the "break-up" with my friends...they wanna dump me d...well,yesterday,a friend of mine called me and we chatted for a little while..because the line keep breaking....stupid Hotlink...well,a friend of mine,SI,she said something bout my friend,CC...SI spread a rumour that CC like another friend of mine,JC...I don't wanna get in the middle thus i decided not to take sides but i'm a really straight person and i would say what i wanna say because i don't wanna keep it in my heart...besides,none of my friends what so ever read my blog cause no one cares for me... *sob sob* well,JC is a student of my mum and he's super rich smart kind cute and all..kinda like the perfect guy but sometimes guy are just....GUYS....well,that's not the point....i mean,as a friend,i wouldn't hope that both CC and SI would not have 'cold war'..or anything that would make their friendship worst...they've been close friends ever since they were younger because both of them stay really near and they both have the same surname...but i think it is wrong for SI to spread a rumour like this because true friends should be there to help each other instead of stabbing each other behind their backs...well,maybe the rumours might not be true because i don't really know the head and the tail of the story but on the whole,i get a summary which consists of SI spreading a rumour bout CC...i really hope they would've sort this out and hopefully what i heard is not true...maybe,it was all just a misunderstanding....You guys should have known how much i hate for a friendship to break..it takes a lot to keep a friendship alive and after all these years,i think a small thing like this is not worth breaking up your friendship....
Written at 3:36 PM on Wednesday, October 24, 2007 0 comment(s)
for the goodness of dragon fruits,visit wikipedia
i write this post because my mom is selling dragon fruit enzyme and it's really good for your body..no kidding la...you guys should trust me...besides,the other day when Edna and Carly asked me bout the goodness of dragon fruit,i didn't knew how to answer...so i looked it up...hmphh,good old Wikipedia helped me out...ok,back to my mom's dragon fruit enzyme,they are home made and not from factory's one and the sugar my mom used is good one ok...it only costs RM 60 per bottle and it ain't a small bottle k?sort of like a wine bottle like that lo...anyone wanna try a bottle?it'll also make a perfect gift for your parents... =>
how come no one wrote bout Lim Goh Tong one....hey people,front page news leh....he so smart and multi billionaire leh....write something bout him la....i don't wanna look like a stupid dork who writes bout something no one cares about...you people should be more considerate.....for my feelings and to respect the dead....
BTW,i'm just wondering..just wondering la...will there be a dispute for the family wealth a?just an opinion....
Genting group founder Lim Goh Tong dies
24 October, 2007
The founder and life president of the Genting Group, Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong, 90, died of old age at the Subang Jaya Medical Centre today. He died at 11.20am, after being warded for two days, his son, Tan Sri Lim Kok Thay, said.Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi described Lim as a hardworking entrepreneur who had contributed to the country’s economic development in various industries.“He is also a well-known philanthropist. I believe his death is a loss not only to the nation but also to the business and entrepreneurial community in the country,” he told reporters in Ipoh.Abdullah extended his condolences to Lim’s family and said that he would pay his last respects later.Lim leaves a wife, Puan Sri Lee Kim Hua, eight children and 19 grandchildren.According to Forbes Asia magazine, Lim is Malaysia’s third richest man with assets worth US$4.3billion (RM14.6billion).The Genting Group which he founded in 1965 is now involved in diverse activities including plantation, paper manufaturing, power generation, oil and gas, electronic trading and information technology development.
I guess everyone had heard the news of the passing of the famous entrepreneur who found Genting and had brought up Genting from scratch.I have had always looked up to him as he could have had build something so big from totally nothing.at the beginning,Genting wasn't producing profit.it wasn't producing profit for 7 years if i'm not mistaken.and now,look,how successful is it.
my condolences to his family..at least he died peacefully...
New Straits Times newspaper-for the pictures and articles
The words of a lover
The words of a lover
Can be as soothing and calming
Like a cup of hot tea
on a cold blistery day.
They can be as tender as a petal
Or as loving as a tender caress
A drop of water in a parched land.
Yet the words of a lover
Can be like a sting of a bee,
A sharp slap on your face,
A roar and growl of savage beast,
A piercing of a nail into the palm of your hand,
Or like a prick of a spindle.
Thus are the words of lovers
That can build you up
And then tear you down.
The words that can fill your heart
The words that can also make you drown.
Written at 4:01 AM on Tuesday, October 23, 2007 0 comment(s)
i have had always wished for the end of exams to come but in return for this wish,i would have to give up my friends as i know for a fact that they are going away after the exam.....because there's nothing worthwhile left for them here...this semester,after i moved in to the D block,i got really close to one of my course mate,Edna..she's going away to don't know where yet after the exams....I'll probably never see her again after that....she's been my guinea pig(to taste my food),my guidance(she helps me with my studies) and she's very kind....she always helps me when i need it...sometimes,when you don't understand something and you asked someone to help you,sometimes,they might be reluctant to help you especially in studies,they are always selfish...but 3 of my best mates in college really did help me when i need them...Carly,Edna and Stephy...after the exams,both of the 3 will be going away..thank God,there's still Carly...but Carly's really sociable and she might have lots of friends when we enter degree and she might toss me aside...nowadays,she hardly comes my room anymore...must be scared of me d.....Stephy's been my sifu and close friend ever since the first day in college....haiz....Carly is a much different case..she and me used to stay in block A and during the beginning of the course,even though we were in all the same classes,she never knew i existed....in the beginning....i remembered once when i waved to her and she turned away...how evil....i thought in my mind,so action la this "cha bor"....well,who knew,we turned out to be so close....she jumped class in Standard 3 during PTS..so smart....
i hate having to study so hard la...why am i such a lazy student?3 more days till my Business Paper 3 and i'm lazing around like nobody's business....and looking forward to one more months till my last paper....tsk tsk tsk....
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly
Time after Time
sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me,
I can't hear what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind-- the second hand unwinds
if you're lost you can look--
and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--
I'll be waiting time after time
Shocking yet Absurd.Absurd yet Shocking.Either Way.
Posted at: 10:57 PM
This irrational piece of news caught my attention while I was browsing around reading up some news.
The title was: Oops... man she had sex with not her husband.
/2060793/Article/index_html This was extremely disturbing. You see, this lady went to bed and felt somebody (she perceived as her husband) next to her. Probably grinding up on her because she signalled it as SEX. Or maybe she was becoming way too horny for missing out the actions during her husband's absence (he went to work). So what prompted her to have sex or as described by NST, reacted to "what comes naturally"? The curiousity is just killing me! Are both men lookalike? Are their physiques almost the same? (nevermind the guilty pleasure of questioning the size of penis) More to come... the touches? The breathing? The scent of body? The sound (bravo if he resisted from moaning, or she muffled his)? Not that I'm thinking dirty, just a natural act of questioning something so absurd and irrational! Worst of all... I used to have the thought that a married couple has a special kind of bond only either parties recognize. And having to be in that relationship for a period (she's 40), I suppose they do have that bond somewhere and somehow. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE FOR SOMEONE TO HAVE SEX TO A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON AND NOT REALIZING IT???!!!So now she's suing the lucky-but-turned-unlucky man who somehow just maybe a man being at the wrong place at a wrong time (he's the husband's co-worker) and got lucky for the first time but was crushed to bits when the REAL husband stepped into the door. And I'd like to see the statutary law's definition for rape in Malaysia just to wonder if she can bring the actions to court. Not that I own any Malaysia Law books. Kudos to the lady. She managed to do the impossible. Carly asked if could the lady sue and win the case?well,my malaysian law is totally ungraded k?my knowledge on malaysian law is so low but from a normal person's perspective,i think she would be able to sue and win because:
1. The guy should have had stopped the woman if he did not intend to have sex with him.
2. The guy might defend himself by saying maybe because the woman was horny and came up on him...but in the first place,what the heck is he doing in their room?
3. The woman lost something precious as opposed to the guy who have had advantage in it...what i mean to say is that the woman have had to lose her face by explaining it to her husband den now the newspaper?
4.The guy could defend himself by saying the woman should've known it was not the husband because of all the different thing Carly mentioned in her post....but the woman could've said she was tired and did not think all that much and that because both guys were working in the same place,sometimes when workers work in the same place,they will have the same smell from the workplace...
NO LYING QUIZ
1. last beverage:
~ Dragon Fruit Enzyme
2. last phone call:
3. last cd played:
~ wooh...long time ago d...my own burned cd
4. last time you cried:
5. last text message to:
SIX HAVE YOU EVERS
1. dated someone twice?
2. where's no. 2?
~ I'm answering to it
3. kissed someone & regretted it?
4. lost someone special?
5. been depressed?
6. been drunk and threw up?
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU
1. Made a new friend?
2. Laughed until you cried?
3. Met someone who changed your life?
4. Found out who your true friend is?
~ not sure....
5 . Is there something you want to tell someone?
6. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m?
~ answering to nature
7. Name something you CANNOT wait for?
~ the last day of exam....
8. Last time you saw your father?
~ last week
9. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
~ something which happened in the past...
10. What are you listening to right now?
~ at the beginning
11. Have you ever talked to Tom?
~ which Tom?i've spoken to all Tom Dick and Harry i've known
12. Who's getting on your nerves right now?
~ some ARSEHOLE
13. Most visited webpage?
~ Naughty America.....haha!no la....Blogger
14. Coke or Pepsi?
~ umm can i choose some other one?
15. Have you seen anyone naked in the past few week?
~ ya...the China Girl from the first room....
Written at 11:37 PM on Saturday, October 20, 2007 0 comment(s)
1. A random guy/girl comes up to you and says 'hey?' you say?
2. What was the last thing you put inyour mouth?
~ Dragon fruit's enzyme
3. What does your last text message say?
~ Good Night
4. The last song you listened to?
~ Welcome to My Life
5. What's irritating you this very moment?
~ The fact that i'm here doing this survey instead of studying
6 . Where is the rest of your family right now?
~ at Home,i guess...
7. What did you do yesterday?
~chat and dance till 3 in the morning....in my room...haha!
8. Pick a scar on your body, how'd you get it?
~ my foot...i got it when i cut my foot at the metal thingy in my house bathroom and it needed 6 stitches
9. What do you want to do when you get out of high school/college?
~ finish my degree and BAR and practice as a lawyer?
10 . Who's your most religious friend?
~ Edna Tan Wan Qian
11. What do you hate most about your college?
~ it's money minded....
12. On your bed, what's your favorite thing?
~ All my babies
13. Last time you took a plane, where was it to?
14. What's the first thing you would do with five million bucks?
~ open my own firm and a place like ZOUK
15. Next thing you'll spend money on?
~ Give the rest to my parents
16. What's one toy you remember having in the 90's?
~ the doll which could eat and drink
17. If you had a son what would you name him?
18 . Which of your friends do you argue with most?
19. Which of your friends you don't argue with at all?
20 . If you could have any car what would it be?
~ Aston Martin roadster
21 . What's your fav food?
~ juicy Steak
22. How do you like your eggs?
~ sunny side up,scrambled,poached
23. If you could get any piercing what would it be?
~ OoOo...don't want any d...
24. How about a tattoo?
~ not anymore...it's a lil' too permanent
25. What's a movie you want to see in the theatres?
~ Golden Compass
26. What's the last four numbers of your phone number?
27 .How many hours did you sleep for last night?
28. What TV show do you wish you could live in?
~ I love my life
29. What video game do you play most often?
30 . What are you wearing right now?
31. If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
~ I love my name
32. Three Names You Go By?
YOU HAVE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS THRUTHFULLY
 Do you still have feelings for your ex?
 Have you ever been given roses?
~ 99 roses + 108 roses
 What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
 How many times have you honestly been in love?
~ all the relationships i've been in,i was in love....
 Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
~ there are more guys den girls,how to everyone has one soul-mate?
 Whats your current problem?
~ not being able to be back home and not being able to focus on my studies
 Have you ever had your heartbroken?
~all the time
 Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
~ I'm in one now...
[09 ] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
~ from friend-good friend-best friend-couple-foes-friend
 Do you believe the statement, “Once a cheater always a cheater”?
~I believe that ppl do change but sometimes they just won't
 How many kids do you want to have?
~ 2 girls,1 boy..
 What is your favorite color(s)?
 Do you believe you'll truly love someone?
~ Maybe one day...
 Imagine you’re 69 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
~ ewww....umm,maybe,if it's true love....
 At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
 What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
~ Butterfly kisses (my father-daughter dance)
 Do you know someone who likes you?
~ Ya..my parents?my boyf?my friends?
 Do you like anyone?
~ Ya...i like everyone....i'm just so loving....hehe!
Do you believe in second chances?
~ In love?nope..In life?nope...In friendship?All the time....
just now when i had my afternoon nap,i had a weird dream..i dreamt that my friends had turn on me..it felt so real....sometimes,my dreams do come true...i've been in this situation before..once..in real life....a friend or "friend",well,she used my phone to send dirty messages to my then current boyf's best friend phone and she didn't wanted to admit when questioned and finally,my friends decide to trust her...my boyf also decided to trust her thus we broke up and my friends boycotted me....well,at that time,i was in secondary school and to me,my friends always come first..after that time,i totally changed,i was no longer trusting....and my family definitely comes first now....sometimes,when someone ask me,how could i put my family first?u know,when i was younger,i was damn rebellious and i silently think that my family had even given up hope on me....thus,i trusted my friends..and when i found out that there are no loyal friends and your friends might turn on you at any time,i decided to stay away from people...during that time was the time when i fake it the most,i had learned what those ungrateful bitches could do and how they could hurt people and slowly,i learned to be stronger then them....that time,i was a total B-I-T-C-H...i could in front of you,laugh like nothing is wrong and at the back of you,screw you till you had no idea what hit you....well,this period did not last long...as i grew out of it pretty quickly but till this day,i knew how to defend myself and not let anyone else hurt me that deep...that's why,i feel sad whenever one would say "i hate my family" or "my friends will always come first"...maybe your friends might have been different from mine and your family different from mine....but no matter what,one gotta know that a person's mind could be easily poisoned....i've been through that part of life where nothing is beautiful...that's why,whenever i hear rumours bout any of my friends,i would learn both side of the stories and i try my best to hear it with no judgement and i would not take sides as i know both of them are just different and one of them might be wrong but i guess they just need time to learn.....well,today i just wanna tell those backstabbing ungrateful bitches that,i've been there for you at times when she couldn't be there for you and i've helped you through thick and thin....at that time,i think the most disappointed i felt was with a close friend i had at that time....she totally turn on me and stood at that girl's side...she didn't even gave me a chance to explain...but finally,one day,she saw how the girl could be such a B-I-T-C-H and finally,she decided to trust me..but by then,i had already change...though,i'm cool with her now d..in fact,she's one of my friends who i still visit when i get back home....but,i always tell her that she's like a "lalang",for example,if V told her that i had a crush on someone she like,she wouldn't even ask me and she would hate me without telling me the reason.....well,i'm use to her now d...that's just who she is...
O ya..there's another thing i wanna blog about...i know it's a weird question but i wanna know if any of you have had thought bout how are you gonna die?i mean not like,in an accident or disease or old age..but like would you like to be cremated or buried or whatever?is it weird to be thinking bout what would you do to your physical body after you die? *haiz...i'm just so weird*
i just found out last night that my boyf's sister broke up with her boyf and i guess she's feeling sad...well,who wouldn't apart from "you-know-who"...that's why i sometimes find it difficult to dedicate my whole heart into a relationship....i'm afraid of being hurt and torn apart....my boyf's sister's boyf came down to KL to further his studies and i found out that they broke up because there's a third party....i guess people do change in new surroundings...hmm,what would i do if i was in her situation....i've never been dump and then begging to go back into the relationship...i never wanted to be in a relationship twice because once,it's gone,then it's gone...you would never have back the same feeling even though you might claim that you do...that's why,i never wanted to depend on guys....some guys are over-the-top great guys but i never seem to b able to hook on any of them...might be because i'm too picky but you can't blame me right?it's your other half....when a person gets in too many relationships,people might call them sluts but for me,being in too many relationship doesn't mean you are a slut,it just means that you wanna try on the relationship before you proceed into another level....for example,every time you buy a shirt,you would make sure that you like it then only will you buy right?it's the same in relationships...don't tell me,one would just settle for what your parents pick for you?ok...off the topic d....so,what i wanted to say was,even though you have been hurt,doesn't mean you should give up?don't because of a tree,you give up the whole forest....and,don't,don't think bout getting back into the relationship even if he wants too..you gotta keep in mind that,he'd done it once,who could be sure that he won't do it again....i hate to drag when i'm in a relationship...that's why i hate it when guys will act like he's in love with you and act like nothing when your outside..shit la....don't let the person who hurt you once,have another chance to hurt you again...you gotta be strong and learn how to deal with it...people have already move on,why are you still sulking over what's in the past?
P/S:dedicated to all broken hearted of the world...hehe!
i rated my blog and this is what i got:
i wanna put it in my sidebar but the photo is just too big d...maybe when i change my skin..yoo hoo...
finished my Business Studies Paper 2 today..this paper quite tough la...i even didn't have enough time...damn...the invigilator damn kepo la... always come stand beside me....haiz...my answer so bad d ma...sumore wanna read..made me feel so gan cheong only....feel so sleepy d now...couldn't sleep again last night....damn!
Written at 11:42 PM on Thursday, October 18, 2007 0 comment(s)
Carly msg me and i decided to blog bout my gift.... *boast is more like it*
my boyf gave me a gift recently and it ain't light...but i think i'm gonna like it LOADs...... It's a dildo....haha!i wanted the pink one ma...but he got me the black one...saddening....haha!no la...i'm just kidding.... *i'm not hinting anyone to get me a dildo as my christmas present ha(serious face)* wanna know what it is?u know me...the suspense begins.....SCROLL..SCROLL..SCROLL...
It's actually a Ninja Stick...haha!i dono what is it call la...it's a metal stick which can be long and short and u can carry it in your bag...and when u hit someone,it's gonna hurt like hell..so don't come near me...dangerous..it's not cheap though....20++ but at least it's cheaper than a taser...
How to make your relationship work
1. Understand that every relationship is different. Don't compare your relationship to anyone else. Not your parent's, not your friend's, not your co worker's, not any other family member's, not that couple's relationship that seems perfect all the time, not anyone's, because that won't help.
2. Work on your relationship every single day. Do your part to contribute towards the relationship and keep it going and moving along. Maintain the relationship in every way possible. Work on strengthening your relationship, enriching it, in every way possible, on all levels possible, and in all areas possible (emotional, verbal, psychological, physical, etc.).
3. Get mental! The emotional, verbal, and psychological sides of the relationship are really more important than the physical or sexual aspects of the relationship. Work on creating, developing, strengthening, and enriching the emotional foundation or aspect before any physical involvement occurs.
4. Use the help available. You have lots of resources to use as an advantage to making your relationship better: Internet articles, magazine articles, and books are various examples. There are tons of these that are just specifically dedicated to giving advice about relationships. Use them! Whatever you can do to improve, enrich, and strengthen, your relationship (with the help of the resources available), do it!
You'll be wondering will this freaking even work. Well, sometimes It does ;)
i hate having fitz with my friends...so,i wanna apologize to Carly if i have had said anything that might have hurt your feelings.... *i can be humble too* i don't like to have to argue with u over who's wrong or right just because of such small stuffs....especially over just a 'P'...
I just realize how dull my phone is especially since i've been going stable...my phone used to ring all the time...will someone please gimme a message or call me?nowadays,all the phone i get from my 012 number are my parents....no one else call me d..how pity of me....my 016 number is still not that dead..at least my bf msg me sometimes but hardly anyone call me..let's see...the last call i got from a friend was like 2-3 months ago....and just to ask me bout something....haiz....bout like one minute.....
ohh,ya,a few days ago,i just got another invitation for a 3P...it's been the 4th one this year....do i look sexually active?the answer would have to be NO....i do talk openly about myself at time but NO..i'm not sexually active...maybe after i'm married...haha!and i think i won't have 3Ps....it's a bit too extreme for me....maybe someday...someday when i feel curious about it....
hmm,right now,i feel like having tom yam...yummy...anyone wanna go down to Penang to visit me after my finals?kia,i take u go tour Penang....Actually,Penang is not all about food la...though,i don't deny that there's LOADS and LOADS of food there...there are the beaches,resorts,islands,the shopping mallsssss and last but not least,ME...come la come la...my house nearby also got lots of things d...and ho,in my town,every night,for sure,there won't be a night without PASAR MALAM....so,if ever anyone ever drop by Penang,do gimme a ring k?i'll be your tour guide... *inclusive of service charges*
Tomorrow I'll be having my Business Paper 2 at 10...anyone mind giving me a morning call at 8 30?wish me luck guys..i need all the luck i can get.....
pasar malam=night market
Mark your confessions.
[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[ x ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] Im afraid of the dark.
[ x ] I cant sleep in a room if the door is open.
[ ]I cant sleep in a room if the door is closed.
[ ] I am homosexual.
[ x ] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've ran away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ x ] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ x ] Ive stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ x ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news.
[ x ] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes.
[ ] I dont kill bugs.
[ ] I have xs in my screen name.
[ x ] I've slipped and fell in public.
[ x ] I've slipped out a lot in a real conversation.
[ ] I love to spam.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[x] I want a better job.
[ x ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[ x ] I like multiple people.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ x ] I am self-conscious.
[ x ] I love to laugh.
[ x ] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[x] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ x ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I cant swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars.
[ ] I cant sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ x ] I like chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[ x ] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ x ] Gotten lost in the city.
[ ] Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose. *reminds me of Carly*
[ x ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ x ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ x ] Gotten stitches.
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ x ] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[ x ] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car.
[ ] Been to Germany.
[ x ] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[ ] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in NewOrleans.
[ x ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/oremployee.
[ ] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced.
[x]Saw someone/something dying.
[ x ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[ x ] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[ x ] Eaten sushi.
[ x ] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[ x ] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldnt have.
[ x ] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ x ] Hate the world.
How to detect lies ? :)
Watching facial expressions in order to determine whether a person is lying might just save you from being a victim of fraud, or it could help you figure out when somebody's being genuine. Jury analysts do this when assisting in jury selection. The police do this during an interrogation. You have to learn the little facial and body expressions that can help you distinguish a lie from the truth.
1. Observe how the person smiles.
(A) Forced smiles are easy to spot since they only involve the muscles around the mouth. The person will appear as being overly relaxed and not really happy. Look at the mouth and see if the teeth are showing. A real smile will reveal a bit of teeth but a forced smile may or may not.
(B) A real smile, more facial muscles besides the mouth are involved. A dead giveaway is tightening around the eyes, which sometimes causes crows' feet. Very few people can fake a smile and still control their eyes in this manner.
2. Watch their hands, arms and legs, which tend to be limited, stiff, and self-directed when the person is lying. The hands may touch or scratch their face, nose or behind an ear, but are not likely to touch their chest or heart with an open hand.
3. Check for sweating. People tend to sweat more when they lie.
4. See if they are telling you too much, like "My mom is living in France, isn't it nice there? Don't you like the Eiffel tower? It's so clean there." Too many details may tip you off to their desperation to get you to believe them.
5. Notice the person's eye movements. Contrary to popular belief, a liar does not always avoid eye contact. Humans naturally break eye contact and look upwards when remembering something. Liars may deliberately make eye contact to seem more sincere. Liars also tend to blink more often. A typical right-handed person tends to look towards his left (your right) when remembering something that actually happened (remembered images, sounds and internal dialogue) and towards their right (constructed images, sounds and kinesthetic sensations) when they're making something up.
6. Be sensitive to the person's emotional expression, specifically the timing and duration, which tends to be off when someone is lying. Emotions can be delayed, remain longer than usual, then stop suddenly. Likewise, they might not match appropriately with verbal statements. And, as with smiling, facial expressions of a liar will be limited to the mouth area.
7. Pay close attention to the person's reaction to your questions. A liar will often feel uncomfortable and turn their head or body away, or even unconsciously put an object between the two of you. Also, while an innocent person would go on the offensive, a guilty person will often go immediately on the defensive.
8. Listen for a subtle delay in responses to questions. An honest answer comes quickly from memory. Lies require a quick mental review of what they have told others to avoid inconsistency and to make up new details as needed.
9. Be conscious of their wording. Verbal expression can give many clues as to whether a person is lying, such as:
(A) Using/repeating your own exact words when answering a question
(B) NOT using contractions
(C) Avoiding direct statements or answers
(D) Speaking excessively in an effort to convince
(E) Speaking in a monotonous tone
(F) Leaving out pronouns (he, she, it, etc.)
(G) Speaking in muddled sentences
(H) Equivocation. "Non-Answers" for example:
Q:"Are these your drugs?"
A:"I don't even smoke."
Q:"Did you kill that man?"
A:"I don't even own a gun."
In essence, these subjects ARE answering TRUTHFULLY, however, the answers they are providing do not address the actual questions in any way.
(I) Using humor and sarcasm to avoid the subject
10. Allow silence to enter the conversation. Observe how uncomfortable and restless the person becomes when there is a pause.
11. Change the subject quickly. While an innocent person would be confused by the sudden shift in the conversation and may try to return to the previous subject, a liar will be relieved and welcome the change. You may see the person become more relaxed and less defensive.
12. Watch his or her throat. A person may constantly be either trying to lubricate their throat when he/she lies OR swallowing to avoid the tension built up.
13. A person tilting their head to the right is also an indicator of lying. This is because the creative side of the brain is the right. Thus meaning they are creating, or making something up.
Written at 7:57 PM on Wednesday, October 17, 2007 0 comment(s)
Notice to Employees (Includes Part Time Workers)SICKNESS
We will no longer accept your doctors' statements as proof.
We believe if you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to work.
LEAVE OF ABSENCE FOR SURGERY
We are no longer allowing this practice.
As long as you are employed here, you will need all of whatever you have and should NOT consider having anything removed.We hired you as you are, and to have anything removed would certainly make you less than we bargained for. Anyone having operations will be FIRED immediately.
In the event of extreme pregnancy, you will be allowed to go to the first aid room when the pains are FIVE MINUTES apart. If it is false labor, you will have to take an hour's leave without pay.
This will be accepted as an excuse, BUT we would like two weeks notice, as we feel it is your duty to teach someone your job prior to . . . or after death.
This new benefit program started yesterday.
i just finished my Business Studies Paper 1,woo hoo!finished it quite fast....makes me kinda worry....i'm such a worry wart...hehe!yesterday,i went to bed at 10 and i laid there for a few hours till 5 and finally fall asleep at 5 15...woke up at 6 and ate my breakfast and went for exam at 7 45....exam started at 8 15 and finished at 9 30 and went for breakfast with the girls..i din eat la...see,i'm not such a pig after all....yesterday,had such a fitz with my bf....i feel that he totally don't understand me and he didn't even take any initiative to understand me....maybe he did but i just couldn't see it.....hmmm...miss our sweet moments..we've been arguing a lot lately..probably because i'm stressed out and probably cause my hormones are totally not steady nowadays...later,i'll be having bread as lunch and dinner as i opened up a can of tuna and still haven't finish it...today,i'll be going to bed early as well... *hopefully* my slow cooker is cooking sugar cane....it's cooling....really..tomorrow,i'll be drinking "6 bi teng" *hokkien* if translated to english it would mean, six smell soup...haha....probably cause it has 6 different types of herbs in it..well,shall blog again later if anything comes up...now,i just wanna rest for a little while...tired much....
Written at 8:27 PM on Tuesday, October 16, 2007 0 comment(s)
tomorrow at 8 i'll be sitting for my first paper...i don't know why i don't feel nervous at all...and the reason ain't because i'm well prepared...this will be my most important paper to enter degree and yet,i feel like tomorrow will be just another day...i feel so nervous for not feeling nervous for tomorrow's paper..today,i'm very "guai" for i did not on my laptop the whole day till now...i didn't even on it while i was eating lunch...i recently notice that i always eat super slow....usually,Carly and Jess will be the ones eating slower than me and now i'm always the last one...very "paiseh" leh...i'll be finishing my last paper on 22nd November and A-Levels farewell party will be on the 23rd November...my parents might come down to KL on the 23rd and stay a night at my uncle's house and on the 24th,they might come down to Nilai and we might stay at Allson Kelana a night and drive back on the 25th...anyone got part time jobs?i can't work because i'll be busy most of the month but my pocket really have a big hole in it d...i wanna work...i like it very much when my bank account have lots of numbers in it...hehe...if anyone don't mind,you can bank in some pocket money for me as well...i crap a lot....haiz....after my A-Level,i'll be having my spring cleaning...REALLY ONE...My room look like medicine shop now with all those herbs lying around...i will drink all of them in one month..hehe!i will be very "pu",to make sure that i don't fall sick....
guai=goody two shoes
do you guys ever notice how the streets are filled with overdressed 'lalas'...in hokkien,'lalas' are also known as clams....i don't really know where the origin of lalas came from but basically,lalas are girls and guys who overdressed.....A LOT......the other day when my and my family were cruising the streets of KL...we saw a lot of 'lalas'...no offend to them or any one who like to dress like that but we are living in Malaysia and how could they wear fur clothes?and boots?won't ur feet sweat and stink?well,at least they have nice body shapes...but sometimes,simple is best!
here's a few photos of my babies in my room:
as most of you know,his name is Patrick..he's the latest addition to my collection....
starry..with double R...a birthday gift for my sweet sixteen...
Pengu..he's a gift from Carly...
doggy...a gift from a lost close secondary friend...i lost our friendship...not her...
Mr.Pinky...Stephy's Yoga friend..a gift from my dad when we went to Thailand...
i won't tell u guys his name..it's a secret...he's a gift from my current Bf...he's growing thinner and thinner..that's why he got me Patrick...very big doll...
Ku Zhu...it just came with this name....
i just read from Carly's blog that she got into an accident just recently when she went back for hari raya...but she's ok...i don't know bout her car's condition though...well,she's fine actually but well,she got in an accident..why so careless...must drive carefully ma..like me....a few of my friends after being in an accident,they have this fear of not wanting to drive anymore...but i think it'll only last for a little while...
first of,i would like to start of by saying "Thank You" to Carly for bringing me the tit bits and the donuts...thank you so much...i really love my college's DC++...it's a software sort of like torrent and those sharing type of software only faster because it's shared among the students in my college only...the only thing is that there are lots of porn sharing as well and i don't know how to differentiate them anymore.....there's a few times i downloaded porn(accidentally)....just now i opened my movies in my documents and i didn't even knew i downloaded it...man,porn sharing is just no no....a friend of mine has an external hard disk with 1Tb and he said all of it is porn....how much do one need to jerk off?1Tb must have had contain like millions of porn movies?do porn get outdated a?u know la..last time,sex was like so normal...now,sex is like,wherever there's a hole,it's ok to shove ur dick in...karma sutra....ngek ngek.....
Written at 10:56 PM on Sunday, October 14, 2007 0 comment(s)
seeing the car of my mum with my parents and sister and grandpa going away just now,i felt like crying..i miss them so much...i wish i could be back home now with my parents and my sis in my room....can't wait to finish my exam and be back home....exam fever is on d..i feel so nervous...and I'm so afraid that i won't do well....
Written at 9:03 PM on Saturday, October 13, 2007 0 comment(s)
my exams will be on this coming wednesday..GOD...i feel so nervous...no matter how many times i studied the book,my head is still empty...i won't be working after my A2 exam because I'll be going on vacation most of the time and i just wanna spend time with my family...how nice if only i could have a lot more time..i don't think so i spend enough time with my family..i miss them so much....
this weekend,is my family gathering..my parents drove down here...i saw my sis yesterday night and i saw her acting weird...den after that,i saw that her ear like got an extra hole d..i told her no more piercing d and she never listen..even though,she did promised me that she won't be piercing any more holes and i saw that she did,it made me felt kinda sad...most of you would think that i must be some sort of control freak but i'm actually not...why do i do all that..it's not that i wanna control my sister but to me,i've been a lot,a lot more then my sister and i did regret some decisions i made and i know what is wrong and right..i tried my best to make sure that my sister don't go down the same track as mine but whenever i asked her to do something and she don't wanna do it..it breaks my heart as all i wanna do is to care for her but she just don't understand and think that i'm just nosy and ke po...i don't know what else to do d...sometimes,i feel like giving up on her...just like the way i've given up on my bro...it seems that i'm working hard to make sure that me and my sister don't end up like me and my bro but it seems that i'm the only one doing all the work...i hate this feeling so much..hopefully,my sis don't make me give up on her because once i do,there's no more turning back....if i do,we might be sister in name but we won't be close anymore...i really do love her and care for her but.........
i love the fact that public transport has brought us a lot of benefit..there are less unemployment because public transport brings in job for the people and that it would be easier and more convenient to get to a place as the people no longer need to be afraid of traffic anymore as they are not the ones driving...besides that,it's much cheaper as the cost are much shared....besides that,for a car to travel to a place,compared to a bus,the car would be more expensive....as in the bus,the cost is shared by so many people...but,in public transport,there are so many people in it especially in the ktm..just now i sat in the ktm and i travel for quite a long journey...got a guy..damn geli...i ade sat in the corner d..get squeeze by so many people d and hardly can breathe d...that guy a...geli only...his hand keep on coming nearer and nearer and his head getting lower and lower and he almost slept on my shoulder...when i see him getting near,i stood up and he hit his head against the glass...den i let an old man sit in my place and surprisingly,the geli man no longer felt sleepy =.=" sometimes,i feel so disgusted with guys....why can't they have more respect for girls and why they can't respect themselves....just now i went for lunch with my aunt and uncle and my cousin and i saw a banner for the bak gua and they used a girl wearing hardly any clothes and she was squatting down with a guy feeding her bak gua...disgusting right?make it look like girls deserve no respect at all...i don't know why in a guy's eyes,sexy would be having nothing on...made me felt so disgusted at guys...hopefully,not all guys are like that....ewwwwww......though,everyone said that girls and guys are equal in the world now but i think i some people minds,girls are still girls and guys are guys...they still feel that guys should be more powerful than girls...i told a guy friend about this and he told me that guys could be naked anywhere but girls can't take out their clothes in public..i replied him by saying that why would you wanna be naked in public?he told me,"because i can".... =.="
People say you can't
Die from a broken heart
I knew that was a lie
Since the very start
I'm dark and demented
You tell me to smile
I'd might if someone cared
Every once in a while
No one can see that
I'm drowning in sorrow
Tears I choke back
And words I swallow
I'm bleeding on the inside
And crying on the outside
Can't you at least try
To understand what I'm about?
To understand how I feel?
To understand why I cry?
To understand that I wanna give up and die?
That's never gonna happen
Because nothing gets to you
You'll never try to care
So I guess I'm through
Written at 5:32 PM on Thursday, October 11, 2007 0 comment(s)
I've been watching Ghost Whisperer a lot lately...ever since the first time i saw it,i've been in love with it...besides,i love it that both Miranda and Jim are so in love..they hardly argue and she never doubt any words she said...if...if only i had a guy like him...i swear,i would never let him go again....is there any guy out there whose half as good as he is?this year,my favourite series are:
- Ghost Whisperer
- Grey's Anatomy
- Heart of Greed
- Drive of Life
Did I miss out on anything?Any nice series besides Alias anyone would wanna recommend?
do you realize how much one must sacrifice and work at to remain a relationship?I'm not just talking bout the relationship between lovers but also about relationship withing our very own family.....do you think a team will be able to function well if the team mates don't work together?i do adore my family...not just my immediate family but my relatives as well....but i think I'm not really close to my cousins even though i really want to...probably because of our distance and probably because i have one too many....I'm much closer to the relatives from my mum's side...i don't think so i would be able to recognize most of my dad-side-relatives even if i do meet them on the road....why am i writing bout these?well,just now i read my cousin's blog,Alicia...and i notice that we probably can't be close to our relatives if we stay far away...close..maybe but close as in best-friend-close,i don't think so....every time we meet,it's probably when someone gets married or new year....and every time,it's probably the same question..."how's ur life,how's ur studies,got bf d not?"well,even though i can't be that close to them,I'm glad to have them as my cousins and if ever they do get into any trouble,I'll still be there to support them....today,my boyf read my blog and said i don't write much bout him....ya,he's probably right...probably because we fight a little too much these days and I'll always end up being angry at him or being sad....to me,meeting him was really a gift..he's probably a good dad but he's not a good boyf....he's not romantic but he's sweet...I'm not even sure there's a future in it between us but I'm really trying my best...i never did imagine him in my future but i really do love him.....well,maybe it's a little too early to judge and well,even if we did not end up together,I'm glad we've been together b4....being with him,I've gone through a lot...u have to know,I've never ever put in so much effort in a relationship before....every other relationship I've been in never lasted more than 3 months...because those 3 months were the sweet period where we could never argue...i used to love it so much...but when i learned to take responsibility,it wasn't the only thing I've learn,responsibility comes with a lot of other stuffs...sometimes sweet,sometimes not....but being responsible means that we've gotten wiser and I'm proud to say,I'm much more responsible than what i used to be.....
Pictures speak louder than words....
A make up gift for someone:
The complete set
Namewee's twin brother....
Natalie's reaction during Liverpool vs Tottenham:
Me and Carly during Liverpool vs Tottenham:
The Fireworks display during dono what team vs what team d...
Written at 8:48 PM on Saturday, October 6, 2007 0 comment(s)
Ahbeng Looking for Wife
This is a story about Ahbeng in search of a wife with the help of his mother, Ahkew. One day Ahbeng's mother bring home 3 pretty girls and introduce to Ahbeng.The 3 pretty girls name and occupation :
1.) Ahuey - Telephonist
2.) Ahmoi - Primary Skool Teacher
3.) Ahlian - Bus Conductor
Ahbeng very sexcited lar of course then after a while of chatting with the girls his mother asked him.
Ahkew : Ahbeng, how ? Which one you like the most ?
Ahbeng : I like Ahlian the most
Ahkew : Aiyoh bus conductor only wor! where got future wan? Ahmoi not bad leh! gomen work you know? good benefit, next time your children wanna goto skool also easy
Ahbeng : Ahmah dunwan laaa!!
Ahkew : Why dunwan?
Ahbeng : bcoz skool teacher they love to say "PLEASE REPEAT!! DO AGAIN!!! I Want it done 10 times...SOME MORE, SOME MORE!" Like this very tiring everynite I can die one ahmah!
Ahkew : aiyoo!!! then Ahuey lar! at least she is better than Ahlian
Ahbeng : Dunwan also! ahmah, she is telephonist la! they love to say "WAIT A MINIT! PLEASE HOLD ON!" dem potong stim lidat ahmah where got mood to make baby la?
Ahkew : Aiyoyo!!! then what u like about Ahlian so much? bus conductor only wor!!! Where got future one ?
Ahbeng : Ahmah you dunno wan la ... I always take mini bus to KL, those women bus conductor always say "BANG! MASUK BELAKANG!!! MASUK DALAM SIKIT!!! DALAM ADA TEMPAT!!! MASUK MASUK!!!" (in yingrish it means "go in behind, go deep inside! go deeper some more! inside still got place! deeper! deeper!!!) everytime they say lidat i also very sexcited one !!!!