Written at 7:20 PM on Tuesday, September 30, 2008 0 comment(s)
it's the end now...it's all going to end now...i don't wanna see this happening but it's really out of my control...it's really sad... why does it all have to end this way?why does it even have to end?how will it go after it ends?will there be more suffering to come?what can i do to stop it?i feel so hopeless right now..i'm completely hopeless....plz....plz let it all find a way out...i wanna be strong..i need to be strong...
a lot of things,bad things have been happening recently...i have so much on my mind and i really wanna share it with someone but it's hard..it's really really hard to pour out my heart's content...so much has happen and i have so much on my mind...i feel really nauseating and i feel like puking...i'm tired,physically and mentally....
i just need for someone to be there for me....
Written at 5:12 PM on Saturday, September 27, 2008 0 comment(s)
i don't know what's wrong with some people nowadays...some people just start throwing tantrum and then give you the cold feel and then act like nothing's wrong then go around bitching to everyone that you're like this and like that...whatever...i don't give a fuck no more....i don't wanna care bout anyone anymore...just go fuck up your life and if you feel you wanna go around continuing the lies,do continue...and continue complaining if you wish so...
anyways,putting all that aside,the week began quite well as the internet connection is somehow kinda fast....probably because everyone is back for the Hari Raya cum study week-break....anyways,shall not be going back home as my parents will be coming to visit me...
p/s:can't wait to be done with the event next year...after that,i'm seriously considering not having any other events anymore....
Written at 10:13 AM on Friday, September 26, 2008 0 comment(s)
i'm finally through with all my assignment and i'm really glad....though i don't think it is of the best quality...anyways,all i gotta do now is just to study hard and make sure i pass my first year and i wanna come back next year as a second year student...anyways,i could finally sleep for real for the first time after so long...shall have a good night rest tonight....but for now,maybe i shall just take a lil' nap and then watch a movie later and then go out tonight.....
Written at 1:10 PM on Thursday, September 25, 2008 0 comment(s)
i'm so tired and sleepy right now...i just came back from class and i know i really need to finish up my assignment as the due date is tomorrow but i feel really sleepy right now...i've been needing more sleep den usual nowadays and i'm really bum about it...
yesterday,had a lil' chat with a few guy friends of mine..they were all talking bout how old they are and how old they would be when they graduate and then one of them told me that he asked his lecturer,after living on earth for more then 40 years,what is the one thing your regret most?
his lecturer told him that he regret not having the most out of his youth and how he did not just have fun when he was younger and not worry that much that he was spending his parents' money....so, my friend den told me to just enjoy myself...i know..i really want to if i'm able....but i really do feel guilty when i spend my parent's money...if it wasn't for me,they could have used this money to go around the world and have so much fun and they could even stop working now...
sometimes in life,it's the hardships that makes us know what happiness is...
Written at 9:54 PM on Wednesday, September 24, 2008 0 comment(s)
i'm currently sitting by the swimming pool...it should feel relaxing but i feel really sleepy and yet i have to finish up my assignment and yet i have 10 o'clock class tomorrow....man,life really is working me....hmm....but at least i only have 1 class tomorrow....hmm....so if i'm able to finish my assignment by tonight then i'll be able to sleep the whole day tomorrow....anyways,i'm gonna rush as fast as i can...but there's internet...man,it's way too much distraction....
see what i woke up to this morning....someone gave me this award today...still really sleepy so would just like to say thanks for the awards and i think you are one kick ass blogger as well..
a friend of mine told me today... friends cannot stay as friends as friendship could turn into love but love would never return to be friends....i do find a lot of truth in that...
"Love is friendship set on fire."
but even so,many people would risk the friendship in hope for something better...
"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."
do you know how people would always say things like love has no boundaries and how when people are in love,nothing is i and u..it's always us..
"Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale... Love loves; this is its nature."
and how people would say things like love makes the world go round?
"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
but even though i know how much love would make me happy and yet sad,i'm always willing to get myself involve...
"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness."
i know how much it hurts,and i still fall for it all the time...why am i so silly? because of the happiness it always brings when we are together...because of all the sweet things you do for me...because you always make me fall for you...
Love is truth
Love is pure joy
Love is giving freely
Love is a free gift
Love is freedom
Love is powerful
Love is amazing
Love is considering and honoring others... their whole being - ideas, beliefs, feelings...
Love is unconditional
Love is awesome
Love is respectful
Love is... Light
Love is... Truth
Love is... Intimacy
Love is... Romance
Love is... Trust
Love is... Joy
Love is... The Journey...
Love is... What to you?
today is the 24th of September...which is also my dearest sister's birthday....it's her 15th birthday....hmmm,getting older day by day....anyways,here's a lil' something dedicated to her....
A Very Special Sister
For many years we’ve shared our lives
One roof we once lived under
Sometimes we laughed, sometimes we cried
Through winter storms and thunder
The younger years have faded fast
We’ve gone our separate ways
But through all time our friendship lasts
Our bond in life remains
As summer brings the happy times
The autumn winds will whisper
A closer friend I’d never find
Than the one I call my Sister.
Written at 12:30 AM on Monday, September 22, 2008 0 comment(s)
i just finish a tag and pats for myself...just felt like letting everyone know,i love you guys....sorta felt like my picture here..anyways,class is at 12 tomorrow...so not going to sleep early but the medication i just took really made me felt sleepy like hell...anyways, toodles...
Written at 10:18 PM on Sunday, September 21, 2008 0 comment(s)
the last person to tag u is:
what relationship of u wif him/her:
sister and sister..haha!
your 5 impression towards him:
keep bullying me
always owe me money
loves my very much
keep cheating my money
The most memorable thing that he/she has done to u:
The most memorable words that he/she said to u:
i love you
if he/she becomes ur lover, u will:
if he/she becomes ur enemy, u will:
if he/she becomes ur lover, he/she has to improve on?:
if he/she becomes ur enemy, the reason is?:
he tag me too freaking much.
The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?:
love her with all my heart..haha!
The overall impression of him/her is?:
she's got a nice sister...
How do you think the people around you will feel about you?:
The character for yourself is?:
On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?:
The most ideal person you want to be is?:
For the persons who care and like you, say something about them.:
thanks?i love you too...
Ten people to tag:
- hsu leng
- chen hueh
- phey shan
- phey yee
Who is number 2 having relationship with?
Is number 3 a male or female?
If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
chen hueh and szien:NO...N-O...
How about number 5 and number 8?
daphne and phey shan:hmm...do they swing that way?
What is number 1 studying about?
When was the last time you had a chat with them?
some everyday,some weeks ago...
Is number 4 a single?
hsuleng: as far as i know...
Say something about number 2.
Written at 11:17 PM on Thursday, September 18, 2008 0 comment(s)
my results are back...i haven't got dengue...so thanks guys,for worrying...i'm sorry if i have not been replying on msn...don't really feel like chatting...right now,i'm having rashes and they kinda sorta itch like hell...i'm going to go to bed now...else i'll scratch and scratch my skin off...