as always,as time grow nearer and nearer and closer and closer to the time I'm about to go back to college,I'll always update my blog and complain about everything back in college....still one week more to go before I'm back in my college and in my room...anyways,this holiday has been nice and yet there were some sucky moments...CH and maybe AB might be going back on Tuesday....too bad for them but it's not too long that I'll be joining them as well....anyways,happy times always seems really short...but that's just life....
when i said something and when i said it once,i don't like repeating myself,I'm stubborn and especially when i said something that is for your own benefit,i don't like saying it many times,i hate it in fact....ever since,i went to college,I've changed a lot....I'm no longer that violent and vulgar no more but i still stand by my principle....i do still tell the truth straight to your face,even if it may get myself into trouble...because that's just how i am..i might change in future but up till this very point,i like who i am very much...i do hate it when someone i care about think I'm being someone bad..i know i can be stubborn at times but when i say it's for your own good,do you know i really mean it from the bottom of my heart and for you to not appreciate it simply hurts me...but whatever,it's still your own body and may it be good or bad,it's still your choice to make...
i do believe in nature of life..the laughter,tears,happiness,sadness,life and death itself...i believe in all that and i definitely believe in karma...whenever my time comes,if it's my time to die,i shall go willingly....may it bring laughter or tears to your eyes whenever i'm gone,it's still my time to go...i'm not afraid of death itself...may it be that i'm dying a natural death or may it be that i'm dying because of accident or because of my mouth,it's still my time to go....
i don't wanna care bout small things in life especially things that breaks my heart....but i know i will always do...i do wish for a lot of things which are impossible to get....but all in all,i'll still love myself for who i am because there's no other best friend besides myself....
i know i know..it's been days since i came back and i haven't updated my blog...sorry ya dears....anyways,it's been really hectic this few days as many things have had happened..i do miss college but i still love my home the best....i know my time back home is limited thus,i'm trying to spend it to the fullest...hope everyone else's enjoying their holiday as well....well,Nelson(my classmate) will be coming down to visit Penang later and we'll be bringing him out for gai gai (walk walk) later..something happened to my laptop previously and now,it's finally fixed...even though not as good as it used to be,i still appreciate the job my friend did on my laptop...thanks ya...but as usual...still as slow as hell...haha!well,later going out to go fetch Chen Hueh and i think that cha bo still haven't wake up yet....tsk!tsk!tsk!so pig right....haiz...how come pretty girls are always like this...saddening right....
i need to thank ABBY so much for her voucher...because of her,i need to purposely wake up early to go use her voucher so that she'll know i appreciate her that much..haha...anyways,thanks la girl....
P/S:see la abby...purposely dedicate a post to u ...
just came back from having breakfast...finally had the sausage McMuffin d lo...tomorrow will be my Contract Law paper....so many cases to memorize lo....den after that,i'll be going home d...whoopee!sometimes,do feel thankful cause i took A-Levels...really help me a lot in my degree but compare to lots of students in our class....really wasted more time den most of them lo....anyways,wanna go sleep for a while den continue studying d....*tired*
Layer One : On The Outside
Name --> Lim Su-Quinn
Date of Birth --> 16 08 1988
Current Status --> Taken N Unavailable
Eye Colour --> Black
Hair Colour --> Black
Righty or Lefty --> Righty
Layer Two : On The Inside
Your Heritage --> Chinese
Your Fears --> Losing my love ones
Your Weakness --> My love for people i care about
Perfect Pizza --> Cheese Pizza
Layer Three : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up --> Is everyone happy today?
Your Bedtime --> it varies in time
Your Most Missed Memory --> Childhood
Layer Four : Your Picks
Pepsi or Coke --> Both are OK
McDonald's or Burger King --> McDonald's
Single or Group Dates --> Single
Adidas or Nike --> Nike
Tea or Nestea --> Both
Chocolate or Vanilla --> Chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee --> Cappucino
Layer Five : Do You...
Smoke --> No
Curse --> Sometimes
Take a shower --> D-U-H
Think you've been in love --> I think so
Go to school --> Of course
Want to get married --> Sure
Believe in yourself --> Yeap
Think you're a health freak --> Ha!ha!
Layer Six - In The Past Month
Drank alcohol --> Yes
Eaten sushi --> Yes
Dyed your hair --> No
Layer Seven : Have You Ever
Played A Stripping Game --> Yes
Changed Who You Were To Fit In --> No
Layer Eight : Age
You're Hoping To Be Married --> 28
For my dream life --> Since i was young
Layer Nine : In a Girl / Guy
Best Eye Colour --> Black
Best Hair Colour --> Black
Short hair or Long Hair --> Short (guy)
Layer Ten : What Were You Doing
1 min ago --> Pracastinating
1 Hour ago --> In Abby's room
4.5 Hours ago --> Procastinating
1 month ago --> Preparing for exam
1 year ago --> Struggling through A-Level
Layer Eleven : Finish the sentence
I love --> My family and Friends
I feel --> glad that exam is almost over and i'm going home
I hate --> backstabbers,betrayers,and sluts
I hide --> from the world
I miss --> My love ones
I need --> A hug
Layer Twelve : Tag Five People
feeling so lazy ever since my last paper....even though i should be studying but really looking forward to going home...i miss home so much and i'm so worried bout things back home so these two weeks back home shall be my time with my family....don't worry,i shall still have time to hang with my friends...especially since they'll be coming down all the way from everywhere...haha!
on the 21st,Jasmine will be having a birthday party...hmm,what should i get her leh?maybe a really sexy top...fweeeet!!haha!well,i still have loads of days to think bout it so don't have to worry myself out....
the internet connection still suck to the max but well,hopefully,they're repair it by the time i'm back from my two weeks holiday....
yesterday,my dear said that i'm a bad girl cause i've started cursing a lot...well,i didn't wanted to but many things had been happening lately and i can't control it....i hope to forgive and forget (quoting Abby's post titled Daily Grace Part 7~~Forgiveness) and especially to forget everything...it would be next to impossible but i would really try....
today is a special day as it's Ibrahim's birthday...gonna go out for dinner with him later...
Dedicate a little something for him o...
On your birthday
I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you!
nowadays,everyone's changing their blogskin and i would wanna change mine too but too lazy to edit all those html...would've taken up loads of time...
just finished my lunch and man,am i full...remind myself not to sleep..and study study study all the time...anyone else wanna offer to help me out?
finished my criminal paper at 10 and then went to return books in the library...went for lunch....did lots of rubbish which i can't even remember and now going to sleep d...tired d....might update again later....
feeling much better from my feeling just now d...but this afternoon because i was feeling so mad,i couldn't concentrate on my stupid studies and now trying desperately to catch up lo...shit la....so many cases in my head now...don even dare to shake my head...the cases might fall off...haha!sorry...just let me be...i'm just feeling sleepy and my head kinda feels heavy....
feeling so agitated and irritated...shit la..thanks for spoiling my day...i hate being cranky and people would hardly have the opportunity to see me this way...i hate being this way and i feel like screaming my head off...wish i was back home,then i could've driven to the beach and scream like no one's business...i miss those time when wei loon would've bring me to the beach and scream then try to act as if it wasn't us...miss those times when my friends would bring tit bits and drinks and pig out....and eat those chocolates till we can't have another bite....i miss those times when i was sad,i know i'll always have a hug....even when it's 4 in the morning....i miss everyone...but everything had changed.....some things changed for the better and some thing took a wrong turn....but,i do cherish every part of my life even when i do wish i could erase some of them...i do miss those times when Edna was here and i would pour my heart content to her...i miss those times when Stephy would listen to me when i sigh and complain to her and not reply me with,"everyone has problems,not only you"...i miss those times with the main pussycat dolls and snoop dogs...i just miss those old sweet times...and remember those times when i tried to force feed Edna and she'll keep complaining,"ayo,fat d la"....
i hate needing to feel sad and guilty and that i have a need to explain every single fucking thing i do to everyone...i hate having someone not trust me when i needed that most...i hate having to feel regret for everything i did and i especially hate it when i feel used....shit....shitty day....shitty paper tomorrow...shitty first sem....everything just feel so shitty today....
i shall just tell myself,
"it'll be a new day tomorrow..."
i know i won't be this way tomorrow....I'll just return to be my own cheerful self...the way i like myself and the way everyone sees me...
shit EBB...why the fucking hell is our internet getting worst and worst?shit...
P/S:fuck la..can't even upload a fucking photo...what the fuck is wrong with this shitty day?
Remove ONE question from below,
and add in your personal question,
make it a total of 20 questions,
then tag 8 people in your list,
list them out at the end of this post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- I believe in everything about love
2. Do you hold hands in public?
- of course
3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- never to worry bout anything ever again
5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
6. Do you like being who you are today?
- of course
7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- let my parents have them and spend them any way they want
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- yea..love is in one's own hand
9. Who are the top five people in the world you would wish to meet?
- No one..i have everyone i need around me...but i would like to see my grandparents for just a little while again...
10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- to love me more then anything else and to love my parents like i do
11. What do you do in times of sadness?
- work to forget about it
12. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or a kiss?
13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
- Point it out to me or i might never change
14. Are you afraid if your not in any relationship/commitment with somebody when your almost in 30?
15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
16. What kind of electronic device/gadget you own that you like most?
- I appreciate and like all my stuffs
17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- to be mean and not to feel sad again
18. What makes you feel disappointed?
- not being appreciated
19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future?
- a flash of it
20. Do you regret anything you've done?
- Ya,especially for people I care about
I'm going to tag:
P/S:don't everytime i tag you all also din do one...
Kan ni na bu chao cibai....
Ni na bu eh lau cibai...
Lan jiao bin...
Or gui tao...
Gan ni na bu..
Gan ni eh chor gong...
Ahhhhh...geram lo....fuck u la...idiot mother fucking asshole....fuck your mother in the ass and fuck your mother's broken pussy....shit head...dick face.....
if this is what u mean by whatever fucking lie you told me about..i don't think so i want it....walau.."heng" only la....fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P/S:just leave this post alone and don't even bother commenting about it..especially the mother fucker i'm talking about...fuck your mother upside down la...but this is really the last straw..i can't take it d...
she was only 14
Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one was around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endore
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly crys
She loves her parents
But they want her to die
She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,"Please God, why is
My life always sinking?"
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,"You deserve to die
You worthless piece of crap!"
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse
One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Lying dead on the floor
It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms
"If I were two-faced, would I be wearing this one?"
The Truth Bout Haterz
WE ARE WHAT WE ARE
HATERS ENVY US
TALK BOUT US
BUT BITCHES DONT EVER STEP UP
HOES SPEAK SAYIN WE SLUTS
BUT I AINT GIVE A FUCK
GO AHEAD I'LL LET YA TALK
MONEY, CLOTHS AND CARS AIN'T ALL I GOT
BITCHES WISHIN THEY COULD BE IN MY MAIN SPOT
IMA GIVE YA ASSES SOMETHING 2 TALK BOUT
SOMETHING FOR YA TO STOP AND STARE
SO WHEN I'M ON THE TOP OF MY GAME
YOU HOES ARE GOING TO WANT TO BE ME
AND HAVE DA FAME
I'VE MADE IT THIS FAR
CUZ OF ME NOT YOU
I'M GOING BACK TO MY HUSTLE AND
LIVE MI DREAM THRU
“BUT BIG MOUTHS ARE ONLY GOOD FOR SUCKIN DICK”
P/S:you know who you are and if the phrase,"i think she's talking about me" ever past through your mind,accept the fact that it is you i'm talking about...
it almost ended just now....i'm afraid to trust again?will that happen again?love is not a game and it's not something that one can quit whenever one wants and whenever one decides to bring it back....it might be a game if you're a player but right now,all i want is one true love because i've been toying with love long enough...i don't want this one to end...i want it to last but if it can't..........
God Teach Me To Let Go
God Tell me how can I move on,Please teach me to let go,Show me how can I be strong,Because that’s something I don’t know,
God please teach me to let goAnd stop my heart from crying,Show me how to stop caring So I can stop my heart from dying,
God please show me to be coldSo I will never get hurt again,Please teach me not to fallPlease tell me this is not the end,
Tell me that I will be okay Please tell me this will be over soon,Please teach me not to give it allSo my heart won’t burst again like a balloon.
happy 20th birthday o Phey Shan...as u grow another year closer to being "matured",i do wish u all the best...i don't have a photo of yours so i "stole" from your blog...hehe!hopefully,you don't mind...but so pretty...can use to promote my blog a?haha!don't know whether you realize i write for u this post or not also..you...you..you ... also never visit my blog one...haiz....sad....
anyways,here's a little something for you la...
Instead of counting candles,
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings,
As your birthday nears.
Consider special people
Who love you,
and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.
Think about the memories
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.
Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"
P/S:sorry o..no present wo..wakakaka!!!
constitutionala law has been my most difficult paper up till today....i've started on consti quite long ago..but somehow,it just doesn't work for me...i might fail the paper for my mid-sessionals....somehow,the history of the british law does not interest me....too many names and besides,the names of the books and some cases are in latin or french...which totally does not apply to me...i don't even understand the name of the case....how to sit for it?
in another 6 more hours,i'll be having my Constitutional paper...i might even hand in a blank paper.....i feel so guilty and i don't know what to do.....i can't sleep and i can't study....shit!i'm so gonna screw myself over!!!
just now i went to visit Tern Chern's blog....not that he'll ever know because he never...let me repeat...NEVER.....visits my blog....but i found a post which was quite interesting as opposed to all his other lousy-next-to-boring-post..haha!as i said..not that he'll ever know i said these words....anyway...click on THIS!!!
My First Time
The sky was dark
the moon was high
all alone just her and I
Her hair so soft
her eyes so blue
I knew just what she wanted to do
Her skin so soft
her legs so fine
I ran my fingers down her spine
I didn't know how
but I tried my best
to place my hand on her breast
I remember my fear
my fast beating heart
but slowly she spread her legs apart
And when she did
I felt no shame as all
at once the white stuff came
At last it was finished
it's all over now,
my first time...
milking a cow.
Rules & Regulations.
1) Each person tagged must post these rules.
2) They must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3) When I say random, I mean R-A-N-D-O-M.
4) You'll have to elaborate about the facts.
5) The blogger shall then tag 8 of their pitiful friends.
Random facts about me:
I love pink.
-i love everything there is to love about the colour pink...
I love to fall in love
-even when i know falling in love would mean getting hurt and getting scratches all over your heart,i still like to take this risk as it's a long shot....
I love my families and friends
-even when there are times when i feel like it's not worth my time and money,i still like spending it on them simply because i love them
I think i'm a happy person
-that's why you would see me smiling all the time....
I love surprises
-even when surprises could kill me,i still love receiving nice and sweet surprises from people...
I have lots of dirty secrets
-sorry la..secrets d,how to eleborate?
I am a guy
-i love girls lo
the fact that fact number 7 is fake...
-fake d sumore wanna eleborate what?
anyone else who passes my blog...
feeling stupid doing this...lala....
i'll be sitting for my exam at 9 later..do wish me luck..i do certainly need it...loads of it....
some things are bothering me nowadays...at times,i don't feel like myself no more...i need an antidote to save me from myself....i need lots of rest and lots and lots of time....when i was younger and whenever my teacher asked me,
"have you finished preparing for your exam?"
...and we would go like
"not yet la teacher...not enough time..."
...and our teacher would say
"not even DR Mahathir say no time,and he rules the country..but you all....just small kids and still have time for cartoons and sumore dare to say no time...."
everyone has 24 hours per day in their lifetime..the time just won't be longer or shorter for you....just appreciate it and just live life to the fullest..don't regret it and do spend your time wisely because once it passed,it just won't come back no more....
so,i really do appreciate it when i spend time with people because i know by spending time with me,the person might have had wasted a little of their time which they could've had done something else....
She whispered "will it hurt me?"
"Of course not" answered he
"It's a very simple process, You can rely on me."
She said "I'm very frightened,
I've not had this before.
My friend has had it five times
And said it can be sore."
It was growing rather painful
Tears formed in her eyes
It was hurting quite a bit now
It must have been a size.
"Calm yourself" he whispered
"His face filled with a grin
"Try and open wider
So I can get it in."
"It's coming now" he whispered
"I know" she cried in bliss
Feeling it deep within her now
She said "I am glad I'm having this."
And with a final effort
She gave a frightened shout
He gripped it in anguish
And quickly pulled it out.
She lay back quite contended
Sighed and gave a smile
She said "I'm glad I came now
You made it worth my while."
Now if you read this carefully
The dentist you will find
Is not what you imagined
It's just your dirty mind!!