damn annoyed just now....well, for most of u who knows me, sometimes, i do get annoyed with my roomie for all the little things that she does, e.g: the other day at 8, she said she wanted to go to bed...btw, that's no surprise as she does at times sleeps as early as at 6... so anyways, she said she wanted to go to bed and i was like ok....so i continued watching my movie and i had already turned it so low that i'm pretty sure that there's no way she would hear or make out what they were saying, and she kept looking at me, then she said i should use my earphones, which i did considering it's the reasonable thing to do, so anyways, after i did, she still said it was too loud and then after a while, she told me she need to sleep with the lights off, so i did turn off the light den after a while, she told me that my laptop is giving out too much light thus i had to turn it off, thus creating the lifeless me....that's why i'm like in the common room so much nowadays..
anyways, what really ticked me off was the fact that today, an insect flew into our room and it landed on her which she jumped and then the insect flew onto the chair, guess what she did, she threw the chair to the middle of the room and after i said don't blow it to my side, she did just that and did not bother to clean it up with a paper or whatsoever, that's when ENOUGH IS ENOUGH and i could practically feel my blood boiling and well, i yelled at her and stomped out of the room..... and after cooling down, besides hanging up my clothes, i came back and guess what, she took my advice and cleaned up the insect with a paper...only problem is it's my paper and it's a piece of paper which i had been keeping for a while and i had no idea why she can't use any of her papers...that's when i really feel like stabbing her eyes out but i did not and i had to leave the room again to calm down.....and the paper is already in the dustbin and i can't take it up again...expecially after it has the insect's insides on it....
p/s:sometimes, i wonder if some ppl are just born retarded or they just enjoy doing retarded things?
anyways, a secret msg to M INSECT, i told u the story bout ur small bird cheating on u for ur own good, get out of the relationship with at least a little dignity left in u...u would rather trust the player rather then me, but then again, ur a M insect who likes to suck blood, i would not blame u since u do not have any brain in that little head of urs...do u know what kind of trouble u brought to us?thanks a lot...and if u wanna come confront me, u know my number and where i stay, if u want, do bring ur small bird along....
well, did something utterly stupid just now....sometimes, i think i'm just too emotional.... there's this guy i used to have a CRUSH on...well, i knew from way long ago that he was in a relationship but it was not out in the open, well, now that it's posted on his profile....arghhh!!!it just felt, somehow...it's not that i'm not happy for him because i am and it's not that because i'm not over him...i am... it's just that deep down, i'm jealous i guess... even though i'm happy with HIM being ME&HIM now....well, i did not wanna lie to him so i told him the truth bout the CRUSH and how i felt towards his status and even though he said it's fine, i know it was a really dumb move which i shouldn't have take... anyways, i wanna apologize for being stupid and i LOVE HIM... so very much and i wish he did not take this the wrong way as to that i might still have something for the CRUSH....
relationship rules are so complicated
no idea why i'm so damn moody nowadays and just as my mood was beginning to lighten up, someone asked me out which me, as an idiot, as usual said yes and well, i should've known from the start that this person was gonna stand me up...it's not the first time this person, let's call him A, did it to me...
over the period of 2 years, even when A promised to meet at like certain time at a certain place, it's either that he don't show or that he has excuses....i'm not saying that his excuses are not valid but for a certain reason, he find me waiting for him much more fun then giving me a eff-ing call to tell me that he can't make it...well, as the years have taught me well, i did finally give up waiting for him and whenever he said that we're going to a so and so place, i would just end up listening and den will only head on down only if he's already waiting for me downstairs...anyways, since i'm like so moody today and i thought i might go and have a walk outside and since he said that he wanna meet up, i thought ok den...maybe we should...
stupidly, i went down with my laptop and my books as i was about to head to the common room WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSE TO MEET UP with my bag on my back...my burning back with my skin almost peeling off from the frigging sunburn... only to find out that he's still busy doing "something" and i just got so fed up and as i'm so polite as not to yell over the phone, i just stomp back up my room and called to tell him, if he wanna meet den he should just come, if not den...i don't know, i would never believe a word he say....EVER AGAIN!!!!
p/s: sometimes, ppl put up with u because they want to but when u cross the limit, to hell with u!!!
i would like to dedicate this post to the person who does not know how to express his feelings
if only u knew how important u r in my life and how u came to play an important role in my life... i don't know how to tell u how appreciative i am of u but at the same time, i wonder if u are appreciative of me...sometimes, there are time when i wish that u could read my mind for i have no guts of telling u what i really feel at times and at times, i wonder if u feel the same way as well.. i do try, really hard to please u and even when ppl say that this is not the way love is suppose to be, i still tell myself, maybe it's just because that he does not know how to express his feelings and maybe he still loves me under all those...
i love u.
i love every little thing about u.
i love ur cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice.
i love your gentle touch, and i love the warmth i feel when i'm by ur side.
i can't stop thinking bout u when we are apart.
i need u by my side.
you complete me.
you mean the world to me.
u r the best thing that has ever happened to me.
u r the one i have always wished for.
i never thought that i would ever meet someone as special as u.
i love each and every moment i share with u.