Once Upon A Time

moody nia...

Written at 4:04 AM on Monday, December 24, 2007 0 comment(s)

been really moody these few days..yesterday,had a friends' gathering at auto city..not many of them came but to tell the truth,i couldn't be bothered....i know it's wrong of me to say so but i really don't wish to tell lies or act as a part of a lie...though,it may seem that everything looks OK and that everyone is past the "end-of friendship" part,there is still something there...i know it may seem like I'm really "small gas" but i really can't help it....that's just who i am....meeting up with them was great.seeing how so many of them has changed.....but i felt really suffocated.....i couldn't get the image of how i was being betrayed and how they had used me.....maybe i might cause a great reaction with this post of mine but what i say here is how i feel...so,if you wanna screw me,fuck off......sorry for being so rude....and sorry for not being able to put all those behind me.....maybe one day,one day soon,i'll be able to put this behind me.....

P/S:Hsu Leng,sorry for gong off in a rush and not be able to spend more time with you...maybe next time......next time, we shall go out together again k?

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

"tang yuan"

Written at 1:43 AM on Saturday, December 22, 2007 0 comment(s)

today was the day where we chinese "so ee"...it's where we mix flour and roll it into a dough and cook it with ginger water...normally,it taste quite good but this is the first time i'm doing it with my god bro and sis and my bf....my dad just did one...well,i don't know how it will taste like but hopefully it will taste good cause we did A LOT..... and this is the first year where i made "tang yuan" which looks like plasticine....

Normal "tang yuan" would look like:

abnormal "tang yuan" would look like this:

My "tang yuan" look like this:

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

5 more days to go

Written at 1:21 AM on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 0 comment(s)

5 more days till i go back to college..haiz...gonna miss my home and family so much...gonna miss my pets and car and mostly the internet...compared to college..my internet speed damn fast lo...and no more cooking at home time..no more making sushi and spaghetti and no more picnic and no more time to have fun anymore....gonna miss so much of it...ever since i came back,stuffed myself with so much yummy food....Penang..Oh Glorious PENANG.....my sis might be coming to hostel together with me...Might be only...den i will take her out shopping....though...i do feel very poor nowadays....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

10 more days

Written at 2:23 AM on Saturday, December 15, 2007 0 comment(s)

i'll be going back to college soon...so..so...so soon....can't believe it that my holidays will be ending so so soon d...after that,i'll only be coming back home one chinese new year...this time when i come back,i really feel distant from all my hometown friends d...and i just found out that some people just don't grow any more matured even when they age....i just wished for once,i could have some non back stabbing sluts friends....for goodness sakes,how old d..still wanna act like small kids...i realized that during my A-Levels graduation,even though i've only spend 18 months or less with them,our time were much more sweeter and we were closer..i cried so badly during that graduation that my eyes swell the next day....during my form 5 graduation,even though i did cry but i did not felt that sad...because i knew that i was free..free from my back stabbing days and free from sluts and bitches..i'm just glad that my college isn't like some other colleges where some mates of mine complain of having pain in the butt course mates.....i wonder how many houses i'll visit during chinese new year...there are only less than 10 mates that i'm close with right now....maybe at 30,i might be friendless....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

sadness and happiness

Written at 12:50 AM on Friday, December 14, 2007 0 comment(s)

i went skating with my god sis and family and friends last sunday...not many shoes left and i gotta picked a shoe smaller than my normal size...damn pain la....but now feeling much better d...and i also bought a ORIGINAL PCK's dvd...so happy and proud of it..wakaka!first time bought and ORIGINAL dvd eh..... and...and..and....i also did DIY photo frames eh..very nice one leh.....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

i hate u

Written at 4:17 AM on Wednesday, December 12, 2007 0 comment(s)

thanks for being so inconsiderate and thanks for keeping so much secrets from me..you've hurt me so bad and so deep...I've help you in every way possible and this is how you repay me?forget it..i give up...i give up on you and i don't wanna know anything else about you...it would make me more carefree...screw you....i don't wanna say who is this because i want you to know who you are...but i don't think so you'll know....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

christmas...alone

Written at 12:56 AM on 0 comment(s)

i gotta go back on the 25th of December..so pitiful right...gotta spend christmas alone..even though i'm very thankful that my uncle and aunty are willing to fetch me back....i've been back home only for a little while and i feel like time is really very short...going back so soon...haiz....the next time i come back is probably during chinese new year...haiz...even though i'm very eager to start LLB soon but i'm very sad to be away from home....and i'm so worried of my results....going back to INTI means getting my results back too....i still haven't bought Carly's present...but going to buy for her soon la....don worry Carly..sure will get you your present one....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

family outing!

Written at 3:47 AM on Sunday, December 9, 2007 0 comment(s)

tomorrow,going out with my dad,god bro,his friend and my sis again....can't wait for it...it's been a really long time ever since i've been to an outing with my family probably because i've been in my college all these months and hardly ever get to spend any time at home...i really want my parents,my family members,especially my sis to know that i really treasure every moment we spent together...because we don't know how long we are able to live or how long are those people that we care about are able to live...i really treasure what i've been blessed with...a family who treats me well and though we have our own troubles but at least we are able to go through them together....these few days,i kept telling and sms-ing my sis,"i love you" and she kept saying that i'm annoying and irritating....well,hell yea!i am irritating and annoying but that just me and that's the way i show you that i love you...do keep in mind k?no matter what happened and happens,i will always always protect you...with every bones,flesh,fats,skin..i shall protect you till my very last breath....i will try my best to not let anyone hurt you k?so no matter what trouble you get into,you need to share it with me k?

p/s:why can't i have a boyfriend who says all these stuffs to me.....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

worries for the future generation

Written at 3:00 AM on 0 comment(s)

these few days,i've been really silly for i've been bickering with a small kid in my sis c-box...that person is very silly and childish and i guess,i shouldn't bother bout her/him....the fight started because of some silly things....i should've ignored him/her from the beginning...well,yea!that's what i'm gonna do now...and worst of all is...being such a small kid and he/she wrote in the c-box that i was frightened of him/her and you know those lala type of kids...little little will use those,"what?scared of me a?come out la..."..i should've forgive him/her...still young...still having a childish thinking...well,if wanna meet den come lo...i have a fear...if that kid is my daughter(as she say she is),i would be worried now...what kind of a daughter am i having....i fear for the generations to come...just now,when i was talking to my dad and sis...i was saying...kids nowadays no longer no how to think...whatever that they want,they will want it no matter what ways they get it...stealing from parents,from the shop,hitting their parents,borrowing from ah long..sometimes,as an outsider,when we look in,we might feel it is something funny...but when reality hit,we'll know ther true feeling....anyways,i was telling my dad that if kids in the later generation are to be these type of kids,i don't think they'll be useful people in the future....i said,if the generation to come really is that bad,i would rather not have any kids at all...being the poor person that i am,i would only have enough to spend for my lifetime....so even if i have extra money,i don't have to worry over who will fight who for the properties....i could die peacefully and even if i might die alone,i would still be peaceful...hopefully,the small kid(not only the one from my sis's c-box but those from the coming generations,do realize your mistake and please turn over a new leaf...

p/s:this is such a deep post....btw,if that kiddo is reading this....__!__

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

Sunway Carnival Mall

Written at 1:25 AM on Saturday, December 8, 2007 0 comment(s)

today,went to Sunway Carnival Mall with my sis in the afternoon to buy movie ticket and then later on my dad,god bro and his friend came...actually,i went to Sunway because i wanted to register for a postpaid number and i finally did..i got a new number d and my sis sub a number under me....quite a nice number but i think i won't give a lot of people this number....but this number is really nice and i like it quite a lot....then,later on,we went and watch the Golden Compass....bought some stuff from SaSa and now i'm damn poor....haiz.....den after that,i trade in my phone and i bought a new phone d...really can't tahan the old phone la...everything also spoil d....tomorrow,for lunch,i shall make lamb chop....tomorrow morning,feel like going to market...hopefully,i'll be able to wake up lo...

P/S:long distance relationships won't work well....or maybe,it's just me...

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

yuwie

Written at 11:52 PM on Thursday, December 6, 2007 0 comment(s)

my dad intro a website to me...it's something like a friendster programme but the only difference is that it paysone money when one uses it...i don't know how true it is so i decided to just invite everyone i know to make a simple experiment...click here! after signing up den you guys can invite your friends....must click the link and sign up ok..please please..pretty please...

P/S:my dad intro it to me...wa...so cool a he...ngek!ngek!ngek!

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

am i that bad of a person?

Written at 2:45 AM on 0 comment(s)

heart disease,kidney and liver failure,high cholesterol,obesity and many other illnesses are taking over the globe like a huge tsunami....sometimes,at home,i do control what my family members especially my parents eat because growing older comes with much sickness and though one do not wish to have any of those,it still comes together as a package of being human....today,hearing a friend of mine complaining about how her parents dislike to hear her commenting always about what they eat,i felt guilty and i wonder....i once read a comic strips which a bird said,"it's fun being a bird,i could fly anywhere i want and be free"..a fish said,"I'm glad I'm a fish,i could swim so far into the ocean and anywhere i like..." but then,a little boy said,"it's no fun being a bird or a fish,being a human is the best,i can catch you guys(the bird and the fish) to be eaten....funny?well,my point is not to make you guys laugh..what I'm trying to say is,eating is a part of the pleasure of being a human...if one is no longer able to eat what one desire..would that be torture?sometimes,i feel when i restrict my parents from eating something because i know the content of that thing is really bad for them and i know how much they like to eat it,i do feel very heartache because it felt like taking away something so dear to one...picture this,during a wedding dinner,butter prawns are served and your dad simply loves to eat it,especially the head....knowing that eating it would cause your dad's cholesterol to go sky high,would you still allow him to eat...Prawns have 99kcal per 100g...but in your mind,you know that it's his favourite....and even though they do try their best to keep in mind that they can't eat that much of those stuffs,you guys know right,the whole table is filled with lots of people who kept on eating and if you don't eat,they'll say,"eat more la,don't be shy"...OMG..who the heck would be shy if it's healthy and tasty food?we paid for our share of food OK....some more got extra...

my mui has just finished her SPM/O-Level and she's now finding her path after this....it would be a tough decision to make because you have to think of what really interest you and which path your ability could bring you....i wish you all the best in your choice and may you pick the right path....and hopefully the right college too...if there's anything i could help you with,do let me know OK?

thanks guys for accompanying me today...nice to have girl-to-girl talk once in a while..thanks for keeping me update on your life.....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

happy birthday mummy!

Written at 2:34 AM on Wednesday, December 5, 2007 0 comment(s)

it was my mum's birthday yesterday....couldn't wish her personally but i wish mummy all the best in everything you do and may you succeed in every single way...miss you so much...i got you a little something and i really hope that you would like it...even though it might not cost much but it represents my heart....please be safe and take good care of yourself k?

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

something's on my mind!

Written at 2:02 AM on 0 comment(s)

it's 2 and i'm felling way tired...today had been a really tiring day for me and though i slept in,i still feel tired....might be because i had lots of house chores to do today....i banked in a cheque for my mum,took the massage chair to be repaired(damn the OGAWA's Chi Master,took it for repair the second time this 6 months d),bought groceries and went to helped around my dad's clinic....on the way to carrefour,i got lost along with my god bro and maid....eh,so long din't go d ok...

after shopping,went for dinner at auto-city and wee yeong messaged me and asked me whether wanna go auto-city to hang out or not...but,his whole gang also i not familiar with one...talk to myself meh?so i went to mcd to fetch kai tien back...our dinner cost rm 50...for 3 person...so expensive....sigh,economy is really bad nowadays...even petrol price going up..what the heck....want to save money also difficult....

anyways,felt really frightened for my results..wonder how horribly i did?tried to not think about it but i just can't help it....really hope i did well....

and after coming back from sending SKT home,came back home andi don't know what fucking hell is wrong with her....she's always with her "black like it's the end of the world" look...i hate it when people do that and talk like i owe her money like that....why can't people have better manners...especially when you had done nothing wrong....and she talk to her friends so nicely....for heaven's sake...look properly la...who's the one stabbing you at the back all the time and who's the one who have your back...do you think it's easy for me to look out for you and worry for you all the time a?it's so damn tiring ok...especially since i'm so far away from home and i have to worry about so many things....thinking about her attitude really makes me sad la...i kept worrying about my family and home...thinking all the time about their safety and knowing there's nothing i can do to protect them...

i wished my sis would change her attitude and realise that it's time for her to learn to play her part at home...i wish i could be at home and take care of my parents..to let them not worry so much about my bro and my sis.....i realised i'm also a burden as my studies still haven't end and i wished i could be smarter and jumped so many classes that i could be working and earn money for my parents so that they won't have to work anymore....to be able to travel the world...i know no matter how hard i pray or how long i pray,the "i wish" would never come true...

i just wish GOD would be kind enough to give me a chance to take care of my parents in return for them caring for me all these years....i wished i could be the eldest and be able to take good care of my family....IF ONLY....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

i'm home honey!

Written at 12:08 AM on Monday, December 3, 2007 0 comment(s)

finally came home from my weekend holiday d...my mom went off to find peace d...felt so tired..been driving the whole journey....i snapped a lot of photo...actually,i saw a few ed hardy's cap....i wanted to snapped the photo to show a friend of mine but i forgot to save the photo after snapping so.......i bought lots of stuffs and some souvenirs too....and i saw a lot of weird foods there too....the food there damn "shiok" la...so spicy....ate a lot too...tomorrow,i'll be going for badminton with my dad,god bro and sis....right now,my eyes can hardly open but i gotta watch finish all my dramas soon..because i wanted to delete them off d......

some photos i snapped in the wet market there.....i can be a photographer d..wakaka....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn

oh...now i know...

Written at 1:39 AM on Saturday, December 1, 2007 0 comment(s)

this post is dedicated to my sis...

O..say that u wished u wasn't born is it....o...if u wasn't born den u:

wouldn't have such a good sister<----very important point
wouldn't have a family who loves u so much..and be there for u through thick and thin and tried to protect u the best they could...
wouldn't have all the happiness and sadness that a human being should feel.....
wouldn't be able to do all those stuffs u love....

to my dearest sister,i love u no matter what happens and no matter what happens,u'll know i'll be there for u k?muacks....

xoxo,

Su-Quinn